Oh honey, I do know exactly where you are. And I promise you, it will get better, it will get easier. But listen. You say you "really really want a cigarette". Take a deep breath. Now, remember back to when you were smoking when all you wanted every time you lit up was to quit? Well, now you have. You have started that process. It takes some time to get comfortable with it and to look at it as a choice, but that does come with time.
Remember, this is a choice. We choose, every single time, not to smoke. Because it's the right thing to do. And, I want you to quit saying I want a cigarette to yourself. Maybe say "I used to smoke, but I choose not to now", "I would normally smoke now/here, but now I choose not to", or words of your choosing meaning the same. It will help you to think in a positive way about your quit. You are choosing it, remember that. No one is forcing you to quit, it's your choice. Because it's the right thing to do.
Congratulations, you've taken the first steps toward freedom! And you sooooooo deserve it. Be nice to yourself. You deserve it. And remember, your quit is as unique as are you. Do not compare yourself to anyone else, even if they live in the same house as do you. OK?
Breathe. This too shall pass.
Denise [IMG]http://i131.photobucket.com/albums/p300/DeeKaySss/SillyThingsToDo.gif[/IMG] This is exactly what going back to smoking is like.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/31/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 78
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 36