It's tough to say which is the toughest trigger for me. Today it is "People Who Tick Me Off". (moderators, please don't tell me to go to the doctor).
It started yesterday. People (I'm not naming names) moping around, feeling - I can't say how. I can't say how b/c my inquiries have been rejected. That's as far as it goes, then I deal with it. For years and years I would try to draw it out "Ow Honey, Baby, what's the matter, what did I do this time, how can I make things better for you, what can I do differently today". The answers alway blamed me to a degree and I usummed any blame that wasn't given outright.
Things are getting better after I swung way the other way to "what? did you say something to me? was it important? or more importantly, would I consider it important?". This sounds cold, but over many years I had to claim my own reality and rights.
Now we are more considerate, Most of the time now we find an inbetween ground. But it's normal for people to fall into their old, familiar ways. Today is one of those times. I'm fighting the old "Ow, honey, baby...." temptation which would only wind up with me on the bottom. I did inquire a couple of times, but didn't press. This is a time where I would smoke a cig. to physically and mentally seperate myself.
Today I'm not smoking, but fighting the crave. I like what Butterfly Swimmer said about giving it 5 minutes. And I think it was Parrot Lady the other day who said that a crave will go away if you smoke or not.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/19/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 22
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 225
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $110
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 55 [B]Seconds:[/B] 47
