I'm 65 days into my quit and the weekend is upon me. Our neighborhood has been having a lot of vandalism lately (ie my new car was painting about a month ago) and I know who did it but because he is a minore, the police have to have permission to talk with him (mom of course wont let him talk). This entire huge family has Antisocial Personality disorder and is making everyone else miserable and they thrive on that stuff. Well, last night one of my neighbors smokes and we were outside chatting and well, my craving is back with a vengence. The nicodemon has been trying to sneak in by telling me it will help me through this BS. Well, last night I didn't cave in but oh I so want too so very bad. My husband and I and she and her husband are going to a bar tomorrow night watch the band sing. There isn't smoking anymore, even in bars, here in Colorado but good Lord I want one. I keep telling myself I'm not sure I really want this, or maybe I'm not ready for quitting. Maybe I need a stronger reason (well geesh thought of doing this for me to be around for my kids to grow older was enough). Maybe this nicodemon is a complete idiot and really worming its way in and I'm so trying to fight it off. Sad thing is, when my hubby and I stood outside talkign to the neighbors, my husband even licked his lips when he and I smelled her smoking. Oh this 5 minute wait isnt' working either because this craving has been since yesterday evening. HELP
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/7/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 65
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,639
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $263.25
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 5 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43