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Hey Riverdale Man - How are you doing? You are a wonderful person and a great supporter. I was at 90 days once and I let it go. It sucks losing all them days, but it was my choice, so now I have to move on and cant look back. So get them junkie thoughts out of your head and move forward. Your doing great. Here are some quotes from you - All great quotes!!! [quote] Fellow ship mates don't walk the plank, don't go down with the ship come on over here, dump all that stuff down the bilge and lets settle in for a really FANTASTIC Voyage. More of the poison and general ugh right over the poop deck! [/quote] [quote] LOVE LOVE LOVE watching that quit meter roll around. So many facets to it, it is just like those twinkly disco lights, or them sparkly Tiffany rings! HMMMM well what ever imagery lets you go. MMMMMMM loving that that quit meter just keeps ticking and that the numbers just grow and grow. [/quote] [quote] I have been doing things that give me little me time breaks thru the day that are a pleasure and are not work or related to work. These little me time breaks allow me to get back into the middle rather than being all tipped over into the crave or getting away from the crave. Amazing how trimming a plant or picking through a catalogue pass the time and move my mind from where it was to something different. Very much how posting on this site works or how drinking a glass of water works. [/quote] [quote] Day 98 woohoo. I have been thinking about this for a couple of days. I started in the beginning with what week it was and here I am at day 98 and that means it is 14 weeks. 14 weeks I simply am stunned that I have been able to do this, the beach is one more full pulling stroke from my grasp I am rolling in the swell of the tidal pools. Hooray! [/quote] [quote] 14 Weeks I am wild with excitement and stunned. Without this site I would have stumbled for sure. I would have let myself slip. There is no slipping here I am so fully committed to this that I am simply resolute in that I am going to achieve this. There are so many who are here and just under a year, just over a year , 2 years and everyonce in a while 4 years wow. I am going to be able to do this. I will follow in your footsteps, taking your hand offering
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Phillip, Its true Phillip, you are such an inspiration. To many of us here. Not to put that kind of pressure on you but just because we can all SOOO relate to your posts. Your honesty inspires trust and respect. I,too,am craving like a crazy woman. I really just believe that it is nico's final big kick at the can for us Knights. We can go through this for a little bit more. Ride it out with faith. N.O.P.E. Colleen [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/20/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 108 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,722 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1269 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 3 [B]Seconds:[/B] 57
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Phillip... Stay right where you are and don't go anywhere. When these feelings of being overwhelmed with the desire to run away and hid behind the cigarette hit you like this, it is best to stay put. I KNOW THIS FOR A FACT. Those desires still hit me from time to time and there is no way I would leave the house during these times. Continue to breathe. Get your coping skills out that you used in the beginning and use them. Yes it sucks. So what. Get some ice water. Post your butt off, write your feelings out, type them out, kick, scream, cry, fight. Just don't smoke. Do you have any kind of instant messanger? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 342 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,848 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1197 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 30 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 16
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[size=4]OH No you Don't!!!!!!!!!!!![/size] You are stronger than the addiction Phillip. Get your butt in gear here. Look how far you have come and how much you have accomplished. Look how your life has improved. You have been so philosophical during this whole process. Don't lose focus now. Where is Phillip? Don�t you dare let the junkie thinking get the best of you now. You are strong. You are in control. A lot of people lose their quit at this stage of the journey. You are not one of those people. You have too much going for you and have seen too much of that light at the end of the tunnel. You have too much knowledge now to go back to the beginning. Smoking will not make anything better. You need to stop and [B]THINK! [/b] Don�t be a fool. You are quit. How many years have you wanted to be here????? Are you really ready to give all that up? Smoking kills Phillip. Remember? That cigarette is not your friend, it will not help you through anything. The only thing it will do is make you a slave again. Are you ready for that? Get it together friend! Don�t you fall apart now. Don't make me come over there! :mad: [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 342 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,848 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1197 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 30 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 15 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21
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Phillip, Yes, quitting is SO like swimming!!! I feel the same way. In swimming, it's all about getting to the end of the pool, but as soon as you're there, you have to turn around and go back and do it again... just like reaching a milestone. Each milestone we reach is like one length of the pool. And the more we swim, the more we increase the amount of time we can swim at one time to build up endurance. Quitting is the same way. As we get stronger in our quits, we can go longer between cravings, building endurance. And the more we swim (or quit) ,we learn new strokes (coping mechanisms) along the way to help us swim faster (be more successful in our quits). Phillip, through this journey, you have not only built endurance in swimming, but you have also built up your endurance in quitting too. You are a stronger quitter now than you were when you came here 111 days ago. Likewise, I have heard you say that you are a better swimmer now too. I know that you want to keep going in this journey so that you can become better at both swimming and quitting. Don't give up until the race is over... and for quitting, that race ends when we die. Keep going Phillip! You've got a great quit going! Crave the Quit! Pam [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 223 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,588 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $920.99 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 16 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52
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Phillip, Perhaps you are hitting the 100 day hurdle a bit late. It's normal to feel this way around 100 days. This is like the nicodemon's last stand. He knows that he's lost the war and he's throwing everything he's got left at you. You haven't lost... the addiction has! You're winning! Please don't feel like you're the loser here! You're not! I have full faith and confidence that you will not smoke, but I know that sometimes, even knowing that you won't smoke doesn't make it any easier when you're craving so bad and you really want to. But you know that it does pass soon. You're stronger than this addiction! I've read it in your posts! Hang on and don't let go! You've won! Crave the Quit! Pam [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 223 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,585 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $920.99 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 16 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21
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"malaise" too :p Where is my editor??? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/15/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 419 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,488 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1466.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 58 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 53 [B]Seconds:[/B] 12
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I DO know how to spell "adrenalin". :p [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/15/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 419 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,488 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1466.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 58 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 53 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0
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For most of us depression was one of the side effects of quitting. Some of it is that smoking may have masked some other issues going on. Some of it I think is just chemical. Some of it is a stage of grief. After all of the adremanlin we expend to get through the hell of withdrawal, a mailaise sets in sparking questions like "is this all there is??" "Will I ever feel like myself again? "Is joy gone for good?" Two essential things I can think of (besides all of the great advice you have already gotten and Rusty's great suggestion about a few therapy sessions) 1) Reward yourself BIG AND SMALL AND OFTEN. You need some positives to look forward to while you are in this stage. My six month rafting trip was a great thing to look forward to. For one year, I am leaving next week to float three rivers and camp at Shasta Lake. At 100 days, I spent a day at the spa. Your mind and your body may not be rewarding yourself yet, so it may take external rewards for awhile longer. 2) Have faith in those that have gone before you. This will pass. Really, I promise it will. Can't tell you which day, which week, which month. But it will. In the meantime, stop dwelling on that elusive joy that you think having a cigarette will bring. It WON'T. All it will bring is guilt and the misery of failure and the prospect of having to go through the hell of withdrawal again. Rejoice in your freedom rather than mourn your slavery. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/15/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 419 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,488 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1466.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 58 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 52 [B]Seconds:[/B] 29
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RD Man - I am approaching 100 days and I have had a few big craves lately. I think it's a psychological thing, not a physical thing because I seem to be able to talk myself down each time it happens. You hit 100 days just a little bit ago. I wonder if this is like a little depression after that milestone? Is it possible you spent so much energy getting to a hundred days that you're now thinking "now what do I have to look forward to?" Perhaps you need to set up another goal to be shooting for. I know when I hit the hundred day mark I have a little rewrd planned, and my next milestone is the six calendar month milestone. I'm already looking beyond the 100 day century/beach milestone. Whatever you do - don't smoke. Curl up in a ball, cry, feel bad for yourself, and when it's all over, keep the quit. I wish I could snap my fingers and make you feel better my friend. Good luck - set a new goal - get angry again - don't let the nicodemon back into your life. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/7/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 93 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,271 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $790.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 15 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 38
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