Hi everyone. I'm here... still smoke free. I'm tired and have had a REALLY bad day, but I'm not giving up. Just wanted to let you know how much you all mean to me. I'm trying... I really am. Just holding on as long as I can and hoping that's enough to get me through this. Today was about as bad of a day as I could possibly have, but I'm doing the best I can to just hang in there and be positive... but it's NOT easy right now!
Cuddles, sorry I didn't see your message last night... we must have been writing at the same time. Thanks for the support.
Katy/Melanie, if I joined anymore groups, I'd "group" myself to death! I just can't join anymore! I work at a gym, so I go there frequently... I'm in clubs at school, I'm involved in church and in various ministries there, I do TONS of volunteer work and go to various school activities on campus when I get a chance. So yes, I'm VERY involved. Trust me, this is NOT from a lack of trying! And it's not from a lack of exposure either. Someone from this site said to me that I may be thinking too much about it and putting too much emphasis on this, and that's probably pretty close to the truth, but what do I do? When this is such a huge desire, how do you not go into these activities with the goal of making friends? That's WAY easier said than done! And if I DON'T have that as a goal, then I probably wouldn't do as many things as I do, and wouldn't get out as much and give myself opportunities to meet people, so it's a double edged sword. But the fact is that I just can't do anymore than I'm doing!!! I'm too busy as it is!
Riverdale Man/Katy, you mentioned talking to people at church and yes, I'm going to church and I have talked with a couple of people who I trust about this issue several times, but nothing has ever come of it. They ask me often if there's been any progress in this area, and everytime they do, I start to cry. I doubt they'll ask much more.
Riverdale Man, you couldn't be more wrong about not putting enough energy in it. Like I said above, I may be putting too much energy into it, but I can't help it.
Ladybugg/Rusty, I think you're both right about probably not making close friends at the designated smoking areas, and honestly, I really don't want to give up my quit that I
