Na relapsed. She is regrouping for her new quit date. Hopefully she'll be back soon.

Hello!! I'm jumping in from another online support site. I'm desperate to make this online support-thing work for me. This is quit number 5 for me!! The last group that I joined seemed to be pretty tight with their existing members and I didn't quite feel welcome. Although this is likely...just another rotten side affect!! If I feel the need to abandon this site as well...then I'll know that the problem is mine...alone. And I'll have to find relief somewhere else. I am convinced that I CAN do this. I just need some help getting through the tough parts. I know where I stumble and I know that my bigget weakness is a real negative mood that sets in during months of non smoking. The longest that I have gone without cigarettes is 8 months. Sadly, my negative moods seemed to hang in there throughout that period of time. It was (and is now) exhausting to fight it constantly. That's the only reason that I ever went back to smokes!! My doctor is awesome and he has prescribed anti anxiety meds for me this time. We're hoping that this might take away the "crappies" that I feel. But, I don't know that they are working. Hard to say. I'm pretty down right now. This is tough...but I'm going to make it. The best medicine for me seems to be helping other people through their withdrawl symptoms. So here I am. Introduced. The QUEEN of withdrawl.

Hey Babs, You are doing the most incredible effort! I looked at how many cigarettes you haven't smoked... 214!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Yep, that's representative of 214 ciggies). You are so amazing and SO strong. I'm now on day 3 (Aussie time), and I am desperate to light up, but i'm holding myself prisoner at home until morning (I'm fairly ok during the day. Again you message inspired me. Thanks Babs Smiles Cass

Babs - I can tell that you are a very strong person - keep pushing on! I am in the first few days myself and I am feeling the same way that you are - I understand!!! Hope to hear from you soon - I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers - Pitstop

Babs!! Keep it up. I'm right there with you, believe me. I know you will be able to do this!! You said it yourself... NOPE. You are done. You want to do this. Stay close, and keep talking to us! B [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/23/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 92 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $12 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 52 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56

Babs!! Keep it up. I'm right there with you, believe me. I know you will be able to do this!! You said it yourself... NOPE. You are done. You want to do this. Stay close, and keep talking to us! B

Hi everyone, I wanted to post and let my friends know how I've been doing since the laser treatment. It's a bit of a rough road and I think if I did have a cig in this house dummy me would smoke it!! Because I am an addict addicted to nicotine!! I have not smoked and no smokes in this house!! NOPE I am not playing around I'm done I want to do this and I will. But that demon comes in my brain and says, don't you miss me? My mind goes to how my throat feels and my throat hurts bad even as non smoking. NOPE don't want to smoke go to you know where. The sweat is rolling down my forehead and I think awe that sucks but it's ok. In life we all have to work for what we want and this is work. Changing the thought process and learning new ways to deal with life as a non smoker.I smiled when I noticed that my breath didn't have that aweful smoke smell. I think my buddy, Busterbrown and Pumpkin are going through withdraw too as I learned that because I smoked they now are addicted too. I'm cranky and crying laughing and lots of prayers!!!! Whatever I have to do I'm doing it smoke free now and will forever. If I sound off the wall I feel like crap and right now like I said everything is an effort. Is this how you all felt? Appreictate to hear how you felt on the beginning of your quit. babs [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/26/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 42 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $5.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

I thought I would feel better after getting that laser treatment yesterday. The cab driver that picked me up was smoking in the cab. I was so tempted to ask for a cig and it was and still is driving me nuts. I am disappointed in myself for feeling this way. When I was getting out of the cab the cab driver was kind enough to get my walker out of the trunk of the cab. I was walking away and he called me said I forgot my cell phone and address book. Last night while I was experiencing really bad back pain I went to get my medicine. I can't find it!!! I called lost & found and they said that they didn't find it or it wasn't turned in. I am so upset I can't settle myself down. My junkie thinking is coming and I'm fighting this so bad. I had to post. So sorry if I'm bothering you guys but I'm a mess right now. When I have stress it goes to the weakest part and of course that's my lower and mid back. I'm so afraid to call the doctor and tell him I lost my medicine. Grateful that I still have some meds otherwise I''d be going into the hospital right now. I wish to God that this horrible pain would go away. I always smoked thinking it would relax me with sitting and smoking. I've been reading more about laser therapy and it says that for some people it takes 3 or more treatments before it really works. I'm embarresed to call this place again. I'm thinking that maybe Tuesday I can get another treatment and then go away. I have a trailer that's out in God's country. I love nature. My trailer is right off of the river and the cows usually come around walk in the river and I love watching the calves play. Hope you don't mind me telling you what's going on with me. This is my only way of communication with the outside world. Thank you as I will always appreciate the kindness and caring people on this site. babs [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/26/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 111 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $15.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 10

Had a bad time today. Was very shakey, headache,could not think and the lack of sleep is getting to me. I called the laser treatment place about 4 times today and by 3:30 pm I didn't think I could do this any longer. I knew I was going to experience some kind of withdraw but this was really bad. I called again at 4 pm and the phone was answered this time. My voice was shaky and I was crying. Telling him how horrible I'm feeling and don't understand why. That they said it wouldn't be this bad and it is. I was told to come in and had to take a taxi cab. It was around $70.00 for a round trip ride and I didn't care. I could barely walk as my walker held me up and I was a white as a sheet. The doctor said he was sorry for not answering my call sooner. All I said was please I would never bother you if I wasn't in this type of condition. Please next time call me back. When someone tells you that they want you to suceed and doesn't bother to return a call and you're in severe withdraw it doesn't take much to find an excuse to smoke. I think he understood. Thank God, I feel better now!! I don't know what that laser does but there is something to it. I asked why I felt like this and he said I'm highly addicted to nicotine. He said I should feel better now. It's been a rough day and I made it and so very grateful. I know that their will be rough spots but this was hell. Just wanted to share and hoping to talk to you later. babs [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 4/26/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 2 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 86 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 2

Hello my wonderful friends, Today, has been one heck of a day. I went for the laser therapy at 1pm. I asked this doctor if people come back like I do. He said, yes that the people who smoke menthol are highly addicted and it takes longer. He gave me a mehthol vapor to breath in my nose and it's suppose to help with these horrible headaches. My husband drove me and waited outside. I'm under so much pressure. He starts work at 3 pm. I was treated and then this doctor stated that I shouldn't be needing anymore treatmets. That now it's 6 days and all nicotine should be out of my system. He also said that the company will be doing a new web-page and asked if I would give my testimony about the laser treatment. I told him I'd give him a call. Nervous cause hubby waiting and still have to get my medicines because I lost some when I was in the cab last Friday. (Posted about that what a nightmare!) Anyway, this doctor walks me outside and it was weird feeling, (very stange saying this but this is the truth) he was kinda approachig me like he was gonna kiss me. I pulled back and extended my hand out and shook his hand saying, Thank you,for your help." I didn't like that feeling at all! Geeze, I'm on a walker what do you want from me. LOL :gasp: Even if I wan't on a waler or disabled I would never do such a thing. I respect my marriage and have worked very hard everyday to make this marrigae a happy and stable one. Anyway after that weird incident we went for the medicine and then Rich dropped me off at home. Rich (hubby) was upset because he said that I'm cutting things close and he can't be late for work. I take things to heart and feel so stressed out it doesn't feel like the laser treatment worked. I am not smoking but let me honestly tell you I want to so bad. Last night on a repeat of Oprah show they showed a woman who had a heart attack. While she was on the table the doctor pulled her lung over so people could see. She smoked for 40 years! Just like me. OMG, it was horrible. Black! I think someone up there is telling me something. I will not smoke. There is some arguements between hubby & me but it will be alright. My main goal now is to keep my quit and I will. This doctor at the laser place said he never saw anyone so determined like I am. Also, being