AND I CAN'T FORGET "Out of Focus1"
Do any of you remember me from last year? My intro post went
7/15/2005 3:31 PM
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Joined: 7/15/2005
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Hello Everyone,
This is my first post.... and my greatest moment of fear that I will fail myself.
I haven't bought a pack of cigarettes since July 3rd...... And I think if I fail this time I will never try again..
Well, that was a almost whole year ago. Well,I didn't make. I fell right on my face when that party started.
Ah but so much can change in a year. Actually a lot can change in an instant.
First I want to say, the reason for my disappearance, was that my computer fried... Then so much time had passed and I was fully back to smoking that there seemed to point in trying to find this group again. Besides I couldn't remember the name of the site. It has taken me several days of searching the net... before I found it again. I new this was the place when I saw the
"My Glove Compartment"
Last month my husband had a triple bypass. He lives but by the Grace of God and nothing more. He was one breath from a Massive heart attack. Dr's were amazed he didn't.
So life has changed at my house. There is NO Smoking. God has a way of getting your attention sooner or later.
I knew that this time .. for both our sakes, failure was not an option. If I loved my husband, then I have to do my part to insure success. Not just for myself, or himself, but for both of us as One.
We have to be as one to succeed.
My husband was a little over 2 weeks in the hospital. So he was well passed the worst days.. Myself.... Well..I knew what I had to do.
About 3 days before his release I did buy the 24 hour patch. I was amazed.. in awwww as to how well it worked. But then again, I wasn't around anyone who was smoking either. But I was calm.. relaxed, no anxiety, NO nightmares etc.... Fantastic.
Seemed too easy. I cut the patch in half... used half a patch for 4 days... and out of the blue....
I just got PISSED... LOLOL
Took the thing off and decided I wanted the nicotine out of my system. What the patch showed me, was that I certainly could sit and have social conversation without a cig.. Etc. etc.
The with-drawl isn't so bad.. But I think it's because of my mindset, a