i'm afraid of a setback everyday! thanks for bringing it up. seems every time i start to feel good, like i have a handle on things those fears start creeping in. the blurts (my censor, my negative self-talking tapes) in my brain get more active and i begin to minimize any success i've had. "you're feeling great now but, just wait, it won't last, it never does, never has" i'm working with a therapist now- well, just started- which has given me hope. -twister