I also found therapy difficult at first. I was more upset when I left than before the therapy. I think it is normal, because one talk about painfull stuff during therapy. Talk to your therapist about this so that she knows how you feel. Remember therapy is a process and the benefits will only show after several sessions. The good news is that eventually the pain and thoughts will fade away or at least you will be able to cope with it. Just hang in there. :)