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Can you look to the world like you are happy but on the inside be so sad and mixed up?

17 years ago 0 +0 / -0 610

hi ssurrender, your mom loves you so much..she knows that she did not do a "perfect" job, so it scares her that maybe something she did, deprived you of, did not give you enough of, left you with a babysitter too many times, etc, etc, etc, has caused this psycological sadness...just reassure her that she was a good mother to you and try and explain what depression really is. It will relieve her guilt about some of the situations that occurred when you were little..we know that guilt? right? m.bovary

17 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3043

I agree with your statement. To everybody outside of my family, (I do my best not to let my two children see me depressed) I probably look like I am doing just fine, and living a normal, activity filled, life of taking care of the kids, in-laws, my parents, husband, etc. I think I have a pretty good handle on everybody else's problems when I am needed, however, I feel like I can't handle my own. I find that when I have a moment to myself, that's when I feel I am am not "together", and don't know how to fix my "problem". I have been in therapy since Oct 05, hit a low point, got better, and just recently had a relapse, but noone but my therapist knows this. I don't know why or how this happens, but it is apparent to me that alot of people are depressed, but one can't tell just by looking or interacting with them. I am one of those... I don't know it if it is good or bad, but I believe it is quite common.

17 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3

I think people who have had depression for a long time make very good actors. I find my self constantly putting on a smile for the world, friends and family. My husband is the only person who truley knows how i feel, i dont need to put on a brave face for him he gets the real me but unfortunantly thats the unhappy me. When the mask does slip infront of close friends and family who know about my battle im still amazed at how many times ive heard well you looked ok yesterday.You would think after all this time they would know better its only a few words but it speaks volumes on how they really see deppression. I think you find that unless you have personally suffered you dont and cant begin to understand it. Its a shame because most people have people that love them and want to help but they just dont know how.

17 years ago 0 +0 / -0 5

I start doing better and can push the darkness back and supress it, but it always seems to come creeping back. I hopw this course will help me with that.

17 years ago 0 +0 / -0 2364

Hi sweetsurrender, I am feeling the same way. Though my mom has no idea that I am haveing so much trouble with depression. My husband says he wants to help me, but he thinks I am fine unless I am really sad and crying. My 14 year old has no clue what is going on and I am afraid of upsetting him, because he is pretty sensitive, when it comes to me not feeling well.

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 8760

Unique, If you're experiencing anxiety attacks, we have a sister site that may be of help to you: www.paniccenter.net Hope this helps. Thanks for sharing your story! Danielle _____________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 1

It's amazing to see and understand how many people feel the same way as I do. In a way I look at this and think that we are all going through the same phase, in which we are facing troubles with relationships and work. But one think we have to stop doing is keeping it inside. I know this because I never had anyone to talk to and because of this it kept building in until I couldn't keep it in anymore. THAT IS WHEN AN EXPLOSION OCCURS!(Anxiety Attack) People look at u as if ur crazy. My family and friends feel that way about me. I can tell by the way they look at me and how they react to my behaviour and words. It's very important to have someone who supports u before ur loneliness kills u. I know because it almost destroyed me.

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 3043

Hi members, This is a great discussion. As you can see, you do not have to feel alone in your experiences of depression here. Casey ___________________________________ The Depression Center Support Team

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 4

i hid my feelings like you too, now i just feel angry and sad at the same time, don't be like me, talk to someone whom you trust. hope we all get better.

18 years ago 0 +0 / -0 81

Hey CVMarksman I like what you said. YOu know I am 36 years old and have just realized this stuff?! All I can say is that at least I am seeing it now. I find it wickedly hard to open up to people and let them know that I have a weakness. I am trying more and more to speak my mind...not to hurt anyones feelings but to not hurt myself either by keeping it bottled up inside. It's strange to do this...but VERY liberating!!! Try it!! LOL My boyfriend has said that he has noticed a change in me the last few weeks...I speak my mind more, I ask for what I want, I let things out. I feel more reasonable when I do get mad. For all I know it's the drugs but I don't care why I am getting better I just want to be better. I think it is part and parcel of a whole life shift. I think we all do this to ourselves...nobody puts us in the situation (mindset) we are in, we do it. Once we learn that we are worth it just because we exist not because of what we do or what we have, then we can accept ourselves and not take anyones $#!^. BTW....My BF likes the change in me! (So do I!) ;p

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