Star; the help I can give you is to try to see your doctor as soon as possible and tell them the medication is not working. Secondly, it sounds as if you have already been in counselling if you were cutting yourself and were able to stop. Did what they told you before help? Did you change medications or doctors since then? Thirdly, I, like you, have wished at various times to just go to sleep and never wake up....you are not alone. But things can get better, so keep your mind on that part! One month on fluoxetine is not going to cure you, in fact, it might have made you worse, so don't put off going back to the doctor as soon as possible. If you can't do that, get someone to take you to a hospital where they specialize in mental health, and talk to someone there about it. They may be able to get you help quicker, and it seems like that's what you may need....what do you think?