Hi, My name is Shari. I, successfully, completed this program in 2011. And, I have been panic free for five years. I was able to fly around the world solo in 2014. I was on International and National airplanes for a total of 35 hours in ten days. It had seemed I had conquered all fear. During those five years I've been able to manage anxiety extremely easily. Now, anxiety is trying to turn back into panic and I need the help of this Support Group and the Health Educator's and Davit once again. I have been surviving minute to minute for these past four months. I will share with you what has transpired in my life which has caused such high anxiety to be triggered in my life once again. I, finally, had the guts to leave an abusive marriage of sixteen years. I relocated to Florida. I had to move twice having arrived in Florida because, the first rental house was a "sick house". It was filled with deadly toxic mold and high amounts of Carbon Monoxide poisoning was leaking into the house. A year ago my Mom was diagnosed with inoperable Multiple Myeloma, Leukemia and Osteoporosis. The cancers were so far gone that they could not be treated. She was on palliative care for 366 days. Shortly after we settled here in Florida, my Mom deteriorated quickly. In Home Hospice was called. A week and a half later, my Mom died at home while I held her hand and talked to her. I know she is in heaven but, I miss my Mom. I'm happy she is not suffering but, it is a great loss to me and my Dad. It changed me forever. I don't take anything for granted. I was on good terms with my Mother so, I have no guilt. We talked and said everything we needed to say. My Dad has changed. I had to be strong for him and I had to make all the arrangements. I have supported him and I have no support system at all. I don't have any friends or family down here. I'm afraid I will get booted off before posting this. So, I'll post and continue part two...
