Meds

Breathless..Have you talked to your pharmacist to see if you can take any of hte meds in liquid droplet form and explain that its the coatings (probably food dyes) that you can't tolerate? He may be able to come up with something for you. Even the jel coatings might work for you. Its worth a shot, eh?***LUV, SUZY.

Meds

SCBB...and how are you doing these days. Haven't been able to answer some of your posts, even in the smoking one, cause I can't seem to find them when I want to search a post. Never get spacific names. Just general answers to the discussion at hand. Hope you're well and happy these days. I ain't so bad, myself, hanin in there, keeping real busy till I'm too tired some nights to post even. But it keeps my mind clear.Love the new Van and some of the places we went, but on getting back home and back on my quit, cried for 2 days while diging up weeds that invaded our garden while away. Keep well, and post where I can find you, eh? LUV, SUZY.

Happy to Report on Effexor XR

Michelle..glad to hear that you found a med that will work for you. Sounds like its doing great on the dose you're taking. If tht is the case, why do you have to increase it? Seems to be working fine for you the way it is and with your yoga and excercise, why mess with a good thing? I may be way out in left field and if I am, sorry. But I'm just at the point where the less meds I have to take, the better. But I won't go against your doc. Hope you talk to him about it. Wish you well. LUV, SUZY.***sounds like you're doing great so after thinking about it, I'll just butt out and let you and your doc work things out like it should be.***

Age and Panic

Hi, Beth. Interesting post. To tell the truth, i think I suffered from PA's when I was quite young, but didn't recognize them as such and our parents probably didn't know that much about them in order to get help for us. We didn't talk that much as youngsters about things like this. I founf that I douldn't talk about something that I didn't understand. i remember one day in elelmentary school, that I just ran into the house and flopped on my bed crying, saying .."nobody loves me"... It came out of nowhere that I can remember or maybe I had had a fight with my playmate. So long ago, but till remember it. My mom and dad didn't undertand, and just said, oh, do be so silly; now go back out and play. Do I know what I wanted or what I was asking for at the time? no. Because I didn't understand it myself. And in my elementary years in school, like learning to draw, etc. everytime I did a picture, i was forever showing the teacher and saying.."see! see what I just did? Was I looking for appoval?Who knows. And for children to try to understand what is happening to them is scary and maybe they're afraid someone will say, you're just crazy!!! Don't be silly. I would find it hard to catigorize into ages. Some triggers start when you are an infant and some start with a specific reaction to something. Who's to know. As I said, very interesting post. Maybe someone else can add a little.***LUV, SUZY. :quest:

Guys, tell me i'm silly!

Beth and MarieAnne ...I have a thought. I was just like you both. Terrified of going out of my comfort zone. Til I read something by a phsycologist who puts out a paper once a month. She aid you mke your own safety zone. Draw an imaginary line around yourself and that is YOUR SPACE. You don't let anyone into your space or you lose your 'self'. If anyone enters that space, you have to speack up and say please don't stand so close, and tell them you are just protecting your own space (or self) because if you loe your space, you lose yourself. Does that make any sense? I had to raead it a few times before I got the jist of it, but now I can maintain my own space of protect 'self'. I was terrified of flying, when one day, my broather arranged a blind date with me sith someone he worked with. Well, I got in the car, and when I asked where we were going, he said it was for a fide in his plane. Oh, yeah, I thought. I won't be doing that. All the way to the airport I kept saying that to myself, but not to him. Just thought when we got there, I would say 'no thanks'. Out onto the tarmac and saw this little two-seater and again thought 'now way'. As I'm getting the plane, I'm still thinking the same thing. The next thing I know we were in the air and I looked down. I mean I could see the boottom of the plane, it was so small. But, lo and behold, I loved it. We flew all ever the City and up part of the Island. Maybe it was because it was so small. Large passenger planes are so out of your control and you are so high you don't see anything below. Maybe thats what I needed. I won't tell you what happened next tho. He put the plane on auto-pilot and thought we'd have some fun. What do I do? Jump out? No. Just spoke my mind and said, Home, James!!! Kind of nic and tuc for awhile, but made it back safely, and gave my brother an ear full about his friend. But it broke me from flying. Still scared of Big planes, but small ones is where to staart. Its beautiful!!!...(With the right pilot, that is!!!)LOL*** ***LUV, SUZY.

Guys, tell me i'm silly!

AND LISTEN, YOU GUYS....don't ever think you're not going to meet the right guy for you. He'll come along when its time...and it'll be with someone you can share your feelings with and who will be understanding of your fears and problems. Little steps at a time....that's all it takes. Everyone has someone special out therre for them. In the meantime live your live to the fullest and take chances. Even if it gives you a PA. You've been thru them before just like me and we always survive them, don't we. Love to live, and then live to love. We only get one trip around the block. So panic attacks, depression and all, LIVE and HAVE FUN. No one else can do it for you. And we re always here to fall back on for support, strength and love. LUV, SUZY.****sorry, I feel long-winded tonight for some reason.

I'm babbling...

Just noticed that I'm the only one signed and and posting. Better go to bed and stop talking to myself. Self''...go to bed!!!!Night all!!!! LUV, SUZY. ***is this venting, not wanting to sleep, or what???OK, I'm going.....ZZZZZZzzzzzzz ***

Hi Everyone

Beth..you get a blue ribbon for saying that. The garden isn't tht gorgeous yet...but will outdo Butcharts Gardens, our main attraction here, If I have anything to say about it. Re-grassing and putting in that pond or else. The hole's been dug for 2 years.....oh yeah...I said I'd be quiet and go to bed..so ...Night all..even tho its early for me..only 11:25 pm here. Love and night to all...LUV, SUZY. ***PS...thanks for that Beth...guess whaere I'll be in the am...in the dirt!!!!!

Announcing the Panic Program!

Anne-Marie..sounds like what I've been needing. Going to register for this today. LUV, SUZY.

Sleeping changing state of mind??

Weary..Hi.You have a name like mine...weary...I find it very difficult going to sleep at night to the point that my days and nights are backwards most of the time.I would feel so tired. Somedtimes just from boredom and not doing much all day, or doing TOO much and getting overtired. For some time I would take a book and started reading. Never got thru the 2nd paragraph before I fell asleep. Because my mind was absorbed on the reading and not wondering aWHY I couldn't sleep. Now if I feel really tired, but can't sleep, I go and sit outside on the porch for awhile and the fresh air helps me to get drowsy enough to sleep. Since I've understood my PA's and lived with them for some years now, whn they hapen, I just let go and let them work thier way thru. Leaves you worn out, but then you sleep. I know what is meant by someone who has a partner that can go to sleep as soon as thier heads hit the pillow, and my huband is like that. I just chalk it up to a clear conscience. Mine is never cler. Alays have to worry about something. The kids, a friend, what I have to do the next day..the list goes on and on. But I've come to terms with it, and slowly over the last few months, I hve been able to go to bed and actually sleep. I think you have to have an undertanding of how ;you are, and not be afraid of it. Accept it, and things seem to fall into place. Of course, I'm on meds, but have a good balance. For years, I couldn't say no to anything or anyone, but now I speak for MYSELF, and NO is sometimes a good word. It means that you are taking control of your own life, and with that, your true feelings. I've also learned that if something is bothering me, I speak right up about it; something I was never able to do as a younster or even a young adult. Msaybe the years have taught me tha at age 60, you say what you mean and do what you please. WighI hd learned that many years ago. My life would be so different now. We don't have that much time in this phase of our being, so we have to learn as well as teach.Laarning by listening and feeling, and teaching by what we have known to happen and deal with. Many of us are told that we are the strong ones; but its not because we are stong, its because something has to be done, and we do it. Not really OUR choice. When you reach the st