Foxman is absolutely right about the guilt trips we give ourselves when we relapse. We need to remind ourselves that alcoholism is a disease but unlike many physical diseases, it is one we battle constantly until one day we have simply had enough and our sanity is restored. I'm not certain whether I am providing you with good wholesome advice, but this is what I did when I had one too many relapses. I went out and bought myself enough booze to become intoxicated to the point of extreme vomiting. Me and Mr. Porcelain became good friends all night long. The next morning I was so violently ill both in my stomach and with a headache that never stopped pounding. Well that did it for me and I haven't had a drop since!
