Hi,
I'm a 29 year old guy who's smoked since I was 17. I quit for 2 years, but I started again about 3 months ago. I was stressed, and somehow I convinced myself I could buy a pack, get it out of my system and then go back to being "quit". Obviously, that didn't work out.
I've made halfhearted quit efforts a few times in the past few months, with not much of a plan besides buying nicotine patches. Within less than 24 hours I'm back to smoking. I get in this mindset where I just don't care. I tell myself I'll quit later, and I imagine 100 reasons why quitting right now is impractical. I tell myself I deserve to smoke, that because of circumstances it makes sense to indulge. I'm in a strange fluctuation stage in life. I work from home, and I'm in Thailand for another month before I return to America to do God knows what. Somehow I use that fact to justify smoking.
Anyways, I've been reading the forums here, and I really like what I've seen. When I quit drinking 2 years ago, I was successful in large part because of the online support I found. I'm glad to have found this place. I've also been working on a quit plan to use, but I know that ultimately the deciding factor in this quit's success will be my own willpower, and I'm scared that I lack it. If anyone has any anecdotes or wisdom about finding motivation to really kick the habit, I'd love to hear it. Smoking killed my father over a few gruesome years, so you'd think that little bit of history would be enough to get me to kick the habit, but here I am.
Thanks for reading.
