Tennielle,
Welcome back!!! My IM is still the same as it was when you were here before... if you still have it, and would like to talk, then just IM me... I'm more than willing to help you out whenever you need help.
First of all, I see you having this fear of "forever." Well, try not to quit for "forever" - just quit for right now. You don't have to quit for "forever" - you just have to stay quit for today... and then tomorrow, worry about tomorrow. The minutes, hours and days add up and there, you've got a "forever quit." But if you think in terms of forever, it's pretty overwhelming.
You also asked about the "secret" to quitting... well, the secret is N.O.P.E. Not One Puff Ever. That's the secret. It's really simple... just don't smoke! :) Now granted, I know it's not easy, but the concept is very simple. Whenever you want to smoke, do something else... ANYTHING else!!!
Right now, I want you to come up with 5 strategies you will do before you smoke. Now notice I didn't say instead of smoking (although if you do these things, it SHOULD make you not WANT to smoke). When you get to that point where you're about to give in and bum a cigarette from a friend, or go to the store to buy a pack, you must do something first. It could be read your reasons for quitting 10 times before you smoke. Or you have to look at your kids' faces for 1 whole minute and think about what you're doing to them if you smoke. Or you have to call a friend who supports your quit and talk to him/her. Or, you have to post here and wait for 10 responses. Promise yourself that you WILL do one or all of these things before you smoke. That is absolutely KEY to staying quit. If you do that, then I have no doubt you will keep your quit!!!
You CAN do this Tennielle! I'm proud of you for coming back to try again! Welcome back and welcome to your new, smoke free life!
Crave the Quit!
Pam
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 368
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 9,218
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1519.84
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 26 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4