I suffer from a terrible body image...along with my terrible anxiety. At my heaviest, I was about 250 lbs....that was June/July 2013. I was borderline diabetic, so my doctor put me on metformin. Since October 2013 (and really bad since January 2014) my anxiety has increased 1000%. However, in that time span, I have lost 95 lbs (was 155 lbs/70.5 kg yesterday). I'm sure a lot has to do with my anxiety, a lot has to do with the Metformin, and some has to do with eating better (not great but better), eating less, and exercise.
When I see people I haven't seen for a while, they are surprised and tell me I look really good. However, I don't see it myself. Yes...I can see I have lost weight (I've had to buy almost a total new wardrobe)...but I still feel like a fat, ugly blob. I've still got lots of jiggly fat on my butt, legs, hips, stomach and arms. I'm not sure I'll ever see myself as other people do. I'd like to lose more weight...or maybe gain muscle/get rid of the jiggly fat.
Anyway...this is just another of the daily struggles I'm dealing with. If I could just get my anxiety under control, maybe I'd start feeling better about myself and starting to believe what people say.
