I woke up to rain this morning which I want to help get rid of the snow but which I did not want for my hour long drive to the dentist. The dentist is in the next village. I like Loreen, the dentist I go to. Doesn't mean I like going to the dentist. First time I went I still had panic attacks so I went with a safe person who was going there anyway. The rest of the times I have gone by myself. For some reason I don't know yesterday I had dizzy spells and a bit of flare up so I was having trouble walking. By rights I should have had a lot of anticipatory anxiety. In stead I was smiling and saying good thing its not tomorrow. See I never have this happen two days in a row. Besides I could always cancel. There is almost always a way out. Any way it went off without a hitch or a twinge of anxiety. Good timing too, I was there two minutes before my appointment. Some one was leaving just as I entered. No waiting. The drive home was pleasant and I stopped at the grocery store and got stuff to make Pizza. Only partly as a reward. I have a friend coming to shovel out the door to my big green house and I'm making us supper. She is half my age and in better shape than me and I'm a better cook (her words)
So I cook and she shovels, she usually does the dishes too. Good trade I think.
Is anyone having trouble recognizing the recluse I used to be.
The vet wasn't open today so she will pick up my cats medication too so I don't have to drive back. Hmmmm. Maybe I should make a pie too just to even it out a bit more. (good excuse to have a pie even if it is lent.)
A year ago I'd be sitting here a quivering bowl of jelly instead of enjoying a cup of tea and telling my friends here.
It does get better with time. My next exposure may be a three hour drive to the airport by myself. You know ten years ago I would have done all this stuff without even a thought.
Hey Hegs4u you're doing just fine, just keep on stepping forward at your own speed, no one here to bother you with that. We're all working at our own speed here, supporting one another on our healing journey to wellness. We are supporting one another along the way, so hold on to our hands as we all walk together.
Sometimes I move so slowly, some people just laugh, wondering if I moved any slower, I'd be going backwards....like the Nassau shuffle...two steps forward, one step back...but that's my "emotional timetable"....and its the best I can do...
~m, you are the one doing the great work, but I/we will accept partial responsibility for asking questions and pushing you towards the success of which I/we know you are capable! But even then, it's you that comes to the site, having the motivation and determination to want better for yourself and the strength to keep at it. Pat yourself on the back a few times please!
Hugs, thanks for sharing your success story. Must make you feel good to have accomplished that. Remember that moving forward to give you strength.
No question, it is being here... working through the lessons... and being supported so wonderfully by the health educators and fellow members. You all have been so patient with me... so forthcoming with information... so honest about your own struggles... and, of course, I cannot forget to mention all those very annoying questions you ask when I just want answers handed to me on a silver platter. I mean, sheeeesh! you all make me think so hard and be aware of what I'm feeling and then not only expect me to think and feel, but actually behave differently! What can I say? It's all ur fault.
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But even then, it's you that comes to the site, having the motivation and determination to want better for yourself and the strength to keep at it. Pat yourself on the back a few times please!
What can I say? It's all ur fault.
