Hello all!! ... I signed up a few days ago and have been reading the boards .... it is nice to see that I am not the only one "losing my mind" .. lol!
I just discovered that I have panic disorder, OCD and a touch of PTSD- my Drs have came to this conclusion after months of tests ...(cardiac stress tests, echo's, head ct's, other sono's, tons of labs) all were normal - I kept having racing heart and feeling like I was going to pass out, along with jello legs and feeling like I could just lose it - or feeling like I was not real (if that makes sense)... since the 1st of the year I have had 6 trips to the ER and was convinced that I was dying each time .... when these overpowering "attacks" would come on I was sure I was having a heart attack or about to have a stroke and afraid that I would pass out and either everyone would stare at me or I would be alone and no one would find me .... so it got to the point where I would not go anywhere by myself anymore (not even the bathroom at work) - my poor husband has been trapped by me because he is my "safe person" ... it feels like it is taking over my life
I wake up with high anxiety - it is the 1st thought and I start feeling sick - I have to tell myself that I am fine - but does not always work - and for the last month or so I have had panic attacks in my sleep - not a fun way to wake up in the middle of the night- lol!! ...
I worry about everything ... and always think the Dr's missed something (stupid I know) and then I will obsess over it till I go into another panic attack and it all starts over .. I guess the worrying and stress has fianally cought up with me ...lol!! ...
I was not always this bad .... I used to be fun and love having some alone time - but right now I can not even go to the mall or wal - mart by myself and I hate it!! ...
I have just started Prozac and Xanex .... the OCD side of me hates taking meds and I obsess over reading RX web sites for side effects and usually talk my self out of taking things .... but for the sake of my family I am forcing myself to take them and hoping this site will help also ...
Sorry to ramble on - just wanted to throw my "situation" out there and hope someone else has had similiar problems and has some words of wisdom ...
Thanks!! ;)