No, I do not think that I deserve her. Recently, I made a huge mistake....I was trasehd and kissed two other girls and let the one girl rub my leg. Some of my g/f's and my friends were there, saw it and heard about it, and told my g/f, after I had lied to her for a week saying that nothing happened. I hardly remember it and didn't intend for anything to happen, and it was in no way sexual for me, but I still messed up. My g/f would have left me if it hadn't been for our boys.... so yeah, I don't think that I deserve her love in any way. And I know she still hurts over this, and I still think about it every day, so how do we move on from that? So when I feel depressed or anxious, I don't think it's fair of me to ask her for help, or if I'm worrying about something she's doing, what gives me the right to worry after what I did? It's all complicated right now and I thought we were getting past it, but I don't know. So, I'm not trying to push her away, I'm just trying not to mess up anymore so I can keep her. And we don't see each other that much during the week b/c of our work schedules, so it's hard to ask her to help me with my goals, especially with the kids consuming all of our time. Anyway, thanks for your support.
