Thank you all, I was sick for 3 days. I'm feeling better today.

TGFTL= Thank God for this list.

I got a cll from my sister Carol asking me to name 3 values my mother taught me. Since I come from a broken family, Mom left when I was 13 or 14

and Dad wasn't very active in bring us up. We were on our own pretty much, this was hard to do. Then I realized Mom was working with what she knew at the time

and didn't mean any harm. She just didn't know better. As for the 3 values,   FORGIVENESS, She taught me to forgive. LOVE she taught me to love,I think because I never felt like my parents

loved me.  Perservarence, Never give up.

 Hi Everyone, Just to check in, I've been ok. Hope all are good.

I have been in therapy for many years, I had some great Dr.'s and Therapist, some were more specialized in treating my needs than others. Recently I went to my insurance co. website and searched the Doc-Find on it. I typed in Agoraphobia/  OCD/ Panic disorder/ in home therapy. There was one in my area. I looked at her practice and specialties listed on the site and gave her a call.  I was so excited, she said she did in home therapy for agoraphobia and would help me. We made an appt. She mailed me all the forms and questionairs to fill out. I called the insurance co. to make sure all was set. Well, The first appt. she got lost coming to my house. She has an office about 5 miles from my home. I gave her an OCD'ers directions and offered to mail her a map. When she called, on her way back to the office, she said she will be going on vacation for a month and will see me when she gets back. I was a bit confused that she didn't tell me that up front, since I told her I was in crisis.???  OK Then our first appt. came, she made it. She went over history, which I hate, to get my background. Then she said she would prefer I come to her office for therapy?????? I told her my goal was to do just that. With her help. 2nd visit. She again said I needed to come to her office. We spent most of my session discussing this, I was so nervous when she left, depressed too. 3rd visit She asked me how long will it be for me to come to her office. This made me very anxious. I told her 100 years! I started to have a panic attack. I repeated my goal is to get out of this trap and live. She left after making an appt. on memorial day. I didn't even notice this, she canceled. Then left me a message that she would like to see me in her office on friday. I didn't answer the phone or return her call. I paid her up front $180.00 Which is totally covered by my ins. co. because I get 3 free visits than pay a 30.00 co-pay there after. What a waste of time, No CBT, No relaxation tech. no ERP.I was so depressed I spent 2 weeks wallowing in self pity. There it is, my last few weeks. I'm feeling better. I just need to focus on the future not time past lost to sleeping and withdrawing. Thanks for reading. I'm going to dust myself off and start all over again.

peace

Florence

Thanks all for the support. I hope I didn't offend anyone with the title. I think it was in poor taste. Although at the time it made me laugh at the whole experience. Please forgive me, Therapist are very special people, they listen to all our complaints and troubles, and need to be strong so not to absorb any negativity.

Sincerely,

Florence