hi, I'm guilty of this as well. I do it to slow talkers, I seem to be a question ahead of the answer. It drives my husband mad. I'm going to try harder not to do this, it's is not polite. Even if I know the answer, I asked. I will try to listen. maybe we are quick thinkers.
I can avoid panic attacks by not doing things. I guess they're called triggers? Well, I have an Army of triggers watching me. I do get spontainous PA's they you can't avoid. The problem with doing nothing is I feel guilty,Lazy,and dirty,(not cleaning). Sometimes I punish myself. I tell myself ok If you don't do anything than you can't read, watch tv,listen to music, etc. Then I fall asleep. Which makes it worse. I don't exersize, I gain weight, It's like I am committing mental suicide or something. OK I confess, This is all about taking a shower today. If I just do it, I'll feel better. I created rules for my showering. Everytime I skip a day I have to do a double washing. That means it will take me about 1hr 10 mins in the shower, or 50 mins. if I don't make any mistakes. It's all a ritual routine. I am going to try something today. I'm gonna laugh at my mistakes,and do overs. I'll let you know what happens,IF, I take it?>?>?>
I have ocd and showering is the worst compulsion I have, I wash and rinse in a pattern 400000000.000000000 times. I did it! I took a shower.....albeit I had a PA afterwards. I want to go out to a store or something and I'm pushing myself right now. I'm going to do it.
It is ok if I write here when I'm real anxious? I am having an anxiety attack,and am afraid it will turn into a full blown PA. I don't have any support to call. I have a dental appt. at 1:30 pm that I'm going to cancel. I just can't go...... my level of anxiety is too high. I hate this! I really need to go too. What do others do? how do you go?
How true. I remember the worst PA I had was after a bio-feed back session. My Dr. was suprised at how calm I was that morning. I felt great. I went to work and about noon time was in an ambulance enroute to the hospital. After all tests were done. They gave me a tranquilizer and had a psychiatrist,and psychologist see me, because they thought I was abused or something. It was the start of severe panic disorder. I had 7 pa's in 1 day. I think they were all spontanious. I can't remember.
Thank you for this program and support group.
I'm trying to try. After being on a path of self distruction for 12 years it's hard to disipline myself. I keep going off focus, and back to old habits and thoughts. I lack disipline... as Arnold (Shawtzerneger?) would say. Today things seem so wonderful. There really is a whole lot of good in this world. I need to focus more on the good things and be appreciative of all. I get so fearful, right now I wonder why I'm feeling this way? The negative thoughts keep comming into my head. I'm trying to let them pass through my mind. In one cortex out the other. Except sometimes their like a train wreck.
I hope this is not the calm before the storm. Even if it is, I will enjoy this feeling, if only for a moment.
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