New and my story
Hello everyone,
Im new to The Panic Center, and I am officially tired of Panicing! For as long as I could remember I have always suffered from some sort of fear and anxiety, but did not suffer my first panic attack until I was 17. I have carried this torture now for 18 years. My very first advoidences were rolling hills in open spaces, now they have become freeways, stop lights, bridges, gas stations and wide roads. Living in Salt Lake City this has become quite a problem. I have tried citrospam, which help but I gained weight on. Then I tried Lexapro 10mg, which helped for the first year, but with out health insurance this has become a expensive treatment and I know I should go to a higher dose. I completely stay away from the benzodiazepines, the feeling of being numb is to great for this addictive personality.
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My reason of being here is I want help! Im tired of being in fear, Im afraid my fear will eventually leave me home alone because Im scared of the world.My furture goal is to be able to drive down the freeway in my little red car completly relaxed instead of - My palms sweating, heart racing, cant breathe, choking, heart attack, blood clott, stroke, going crazy, everything is unreal, got to get off at next exit, Safe, guilt, and extra 30 minutes drive to work.
