I've been suffering from panic disorder for almost four years, after that first unexpected attack at age 12. I've also suffered from depression from that age, on and off, mostly off. Up until a few months ago, I had been doing brilliantly coping with the disorder, and I thought for sure it would become just a bad memory. Unfortunately, after a severe attack at school in April, I'm back to square one. I'm plagued with daily anxiety and severe depression. As of now, the symptoms I have most trouble dealing with are depersonalization and derealization - these symptoms are so scary and long-lasting they are taking over my life. I feel as though I've been completely eaten up by anxiety, something no 16-year-old wants to feel! Luckily, I found this site, and I feel ready to make some major changes in my life and behaviour and hopefully beat this monster for good.