My name is Chera and I am on Day 11 of being clean and sober.
I have only been able to make one AA meeting in those amount of days because the weather has dumped about a inch of ice covered over by several inches of snow. Not really conducive for traveling, walking, etc.
I have been doing alot of 12 step reading at home. Inspirational reading and also re-reading my Inpatient Alcohol Treatment handouts from last year. I was inpatient for 13 days and outpatient for about another 25 or so. I was on the top of the world when I graduated from treatment. TOO much on the top of the world, I guess, because I relapsed before I made 90 days. It took me about
7 months (and horrible acid reflux) to finally get fed up with drinking again. But honestly, I have learned, or soaked in more anyway, in the last 11 days than I did in my first stab at treatment over the course of 40+ days.
Every morning I say a prayer to my Higher Power to thank him for
giving me one more day of power and will to not have the urge to drink or to fend off the urge to drink. Acknowledging that I cannot do this alone and knowing I have someone to look over me has helped tremendously.
I know in my heart that not being able to grasp 'Turning my life and my will over to a Higher Power' is a major reason I relapsed to begin with. I know there are more reasons. Not doing it for ME but more as setting an example for my husband. This time I am being selfish!!! I am doing this for me because I AM AN ALCOHOLIC. My life had become unmanageable.
Now 11 days later, I get decent sleep, eat 3 square meals a day, exercise, relax, work items on my to-do list, read AA or 12 step
materials and give myself credit for finding the good in myself and others.
I hope this Intro helps others and belive me I have bigger stories to tell, both good and bad, but I wanted to focus on the good right now. I got this website off of some of my materials from inpatient
treatment and hope to hear from lots of fellow drinkers or ex-drinkers. LOL, Chera
