I'm just reminded how sick and powerful this disease is, since I've just stopped smoking again.
My father passed away from emphysema, his identical twin brother died of emphysema, their mother had emphysema,(though she never smoked a day in her life), my mother is addicted the Albuteral, after smoking for nearly 40 years, my sister has all kinds of bronchial problems, and my brother is back to 2 packs a day.
I don't want to wind up with life suport doing my breathing for me, and I know if I smoke, I already have a predetermined disposition, and will in all likelihood, wind up that way.
It is very humbling to see someone hooked up to these machines, and it disgusts me to know I might end up that way, yet I continued smoking, until now.
I am on my 3rd day without a smoke, and will not say I will NEVER smoke again, but I know I will pray for the ability to not smoke TODAY, and ask just for TODAY.
If you've never seen a loved one on a respirator, taking their every breath for them, you are fortunate. Even though I did go through it, it's been a long time, and I got complacent. Next time I want to smoke, I will call someone for support, I will put their picture in front of me, and remember how their life was cut short from the damn addiction, and do whatever I can to not pick up again.
Thanks for letting me rant, I need to get some of this anger out.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/6/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 33
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8
