Our relationship started while he was depressed and struggling with addiction. I had just been recently divorced when I met him and he was just out of a relationship. Over the years we become co-dependant and I became his enabler. We struggled every year - while he was being an addict, I was struggling with HIS addiction, and the lying and staying out for nights. There were good times together, but mostly fighting over those negative things. This has caused me to change over the years, become more depressed, feeling used and worthless. More recently I would get extremely upset at his lying and behaviour and sneakiness. The feelings of resentment and dealing with this left me so stressed and depressed. A couple weeks ago while I was at work, he left to go live with his friend. No note or anything. I have talked to him since and he is cold and is blaming me for everything and for treating HIM badly. Although the relationship was more bad than good...i found myself calling him and texting him and basically begging him to come back. I felt so alone and sad and useless. I don't want to do anything or eat anything. I dont want to go to work and when I do I don't get anything done. I just want him to come back to ease these feelings and make me feel wanted. He basically said he can't live with the arguing and how I make him feel anymore. I feel that I put up with so much and never left him. But suddenly he just ups and leaves me.What is wrong with me?! Why do I want him to come back and why can't I snap out of it?