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This could use some input from others, but here is what I think. When I make a candle holder or anything for that matter, I think it is a need to prove that one of my core beliefs is wrong. The one that says I will never be good enough. I think this is why I never like to build the same thing twice. I'm always trying to prove a point. I'm trying to impress others.
But the pride in a job well done (house cleaning) this I do for me. This is my shop, my space, and I am good, and I can look around at what I have done and say to myself, "damn but I'm good". Because I don't have to show this, this is for me. I know I have accomplished something here. (in the back of my mind where the core belief can't get to) I believe it is just a little something to keep me fighting. A little balance for the subconscious thought that I will never be equal, or good enough. This is mine, no core belief or person for that matter can rain on it. It is where I go for a little sanity in my life. It is my spot. My anchor.
You will not believe how many times I stop a project and clean up and just sit there and look around. This is my space, this is what I have total control of. No one else, no other thing. Me.
I don't know what is wrong with the ankle but it responds to antibiotics so I think it is an infection of some sort. It is hard to tell since I have arthritis I am quite fragile. It did feel like I had broke it but Xrays say not. Time will tell, it is a fare bit better.
Hmmm. for some reason I do not have any candle holder pictures in my album, I will find one and post it.
Here for you,
Davit.