Hi newbie, I was just wondering how you are feeling. I've been in your position. The feelings of guilt were horrible, I felt like I ran my husband to death. I found a good counselor and started feeling better, with the help of medicine as well. But lately, I've had a couple of attacks while driving and it's put me back to dwelling on the fear of another one. I try to think back to how many times I've overcome this and functioned well. That helps me a lot. Hope you are starting to feel better.