As many of you know I'm new here and still trying to grasp how I got into this position. I think a lot about how I could change what started these panic attacks, but I can't cahnge the past and I need to move forward. I don't feel depressed, but maybe I am.
My mom and family and myself are religious, we don't always go to church, I went a lot when I was a teenager. 7 years ago my parents seperated (finaly, we all knew it was coming and kinda thought it was for the better), a few years laters my mom started going to a spiritual church-ok we thought she was off her rocker and cracked or something. After months of bugging me to go I went and felt like it was home. I took a course in world religions as a teen and felt that even thow I was anglican and believed in god etc. I felt like it was fullfilling me. So back to this new church, they meditated (which I thought is important no matter what religion you are! They also don't say god a lot, they let you believe who you want. Of course I believe in god but what if I don't want to call him/her god, what if I want to call him/her friend , guider in life, creator and so on. Anyways I felt good there, I felt I could talk to people better there. At my ang. church ppl were stuffy, snotty and sometimes just plain rude if you were not them and to me that is not christian.
So my mom later went on to get a healing certificate as well and Raiki and chrystal healing. I am close to some of the people in the church still and I finaly emailed one of them and asked what they would suggest. Because I will not take med's to get me through this (I can't even take a tylanol without a fight LOL). She is going to come to my house and do healings on me. I thought my mom would have offered this to her own daughter but maybe she is too busy, I feel I shouldn't have to ask her for help, but maybe that is what I need, help.
So has anyone ever tried spiritual healings and finding your inerself etc.
I should note that the only reason I believe in spirits is because one lived on our house as I grew up and I could see him and he was nice and he also saved my life when my bed was on fire! So I can say that I believe. And I understand others do not and I am ok with that (my hubby does not and he is not christian) we just learned to except each others views.
OK I just emailed my mom and asked her to come to-hopefully she will sometimes a mothers touch is so important! Even thow we don't always get along.
I'm sorry I jumped around a lot here, my head and fingers can just go off crazy when thoughts start racing.
Thanks:)