So here I am one week later.
Not one smoke, puff, nothing. That N.O.P.E. not one puff ever is a great and powerful image.
I know that much of my resolve has been from visiting this site and reading, watching and being so close to the pain, joy and heartache that is contained here in this site. All of the people that are here, checking in, visiting, guesting (those that are unseen and unheard) and all that those who are heard, those that share, speak up and show so much of themselves. All these people, these human beings, these addicts, all of you out there, help to build my confidence and my own self esteem. I know for a fact that one of the reasons that I smoked was to build my esteem, to fit in. Little did I know that I was just not fitting in whether I smoked or I didn't smoke.
I have been happier in the last week than I have been in years because I am actually taking charge of my life. This is a powerful and very very rewarding shift that I am making and I deepen my resolve to stay quit each time I visit this site. And each time I post, I reveal more of myself and I take my resolve deeper and further, trusting myself like I have never trusted myself or any one before.
Have a great weekend all of you. Butterfly Swimmer I will post to your topic/thread seperately, I want to sleep on this. You are a great and full person, I am sorry to see you so alone and I need to get clear on what reply to make to your post.
Thanks to each of you for reading this thread, posting your responses and simply for being there.
Phillip :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 7
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 159
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $52.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 1