I just started a new job and so did another woman. She too is from Germany and her English is better than some Canadians I know :) Your English seems good to me!
This program is really great, especially the forums. Please keep working at it, is has helped me a great deal.
It seems as though any change in many of our lives throws us off into a whirl wind of self-doubt and panic. At least that is the way it was for me. I think working part time is a great idea and I would also do that too if I could.
It seems as though we are always so hard on ourselves. Maybe commit to being kind to yourself this week. Maybe read a good book, do some journaling etc. Also don't stay inside for too long. I went through a long bout of agraphobia years ago. It is really easy to fall into the habit of staying in one place getting really comfortable.
Take care of you, don't be so hard on yourself and remember this too shall pass whether we want it to or not :)
So I have been working now since the 9th. I am proud of myself for doing that. Unfortunately the job is horrible. It is in child care in a place that is breaking regulations all over the place. I really regret even doing the course in the first place.
But, I can't quit because we need the money. Of course they "forgot" to pay me for the 2 first days yesterday. And now they will be holding a week's pay and so now I am looking at waiting until October for any sign of money. Unless they "forget" to pay me again.
I suppose my set back is pessimism. I am in the dumps. I feel horrible, my back aches because I took it upon myself to clean the room as it was so gross I didn't want to sit down. I also twisted my ankle.
Where does hope come from? How can I not have anxiety and panic attacks at a place that is so horrible?
I too suffer from hormonal issues. It can be really tough because you lose the sense of what your body is doing. I can never tell if my moods are because of pms or hormones or something else.
All I can say is that you are very welcome here. I too suffer from panic attacks. I also suffer with low self-esteem. We all share the common bond of anxiety and panic attacks here.
The best thing you can do for yourself is to take care of yourself. Make sure you find support here and in the outside world. The program here has helped me a lot. I also think it would be a good idea for all of us to get back in touch with our bodies.
I posted a while back but stopped as I had thought I was coping well. It's funny how I thought things were good so I abandoned what helped me. I realize now that this healing and learning should go on even when I feel fine.
Background: I was working in a job that wasn't the right fit for me so I applied for another job. I got a new one and was supposed to start today.
I couldn't do it. At first I thought the symptoms were panic, nausea, dizziness, lightheadedness etc. and then I stopped and had to take the time to trust myself. I have the flu. I actually decided to trust myself. I don't know my body or self that much and so I wasn't sure if it was sickness or panic but I stopped, examined and realized that this is just the flu that I have had since new years eve.
I think it is a victory and I wanted to inspire some other people too. Get to know yourself, trust yourself. I am not feeling great about missing my first day but if the employer isn't reasonable and decides to can me I wouldn't want to work for that kind of place anyways. Of course that is worst case scenario and would probably not happen.
Still, I have to deal with first day jitters on another day but at least I won't have the flu! I plan on posting more and becoming part of this community.
I have been feeling the same! I have been feeling out of sorts since Sept. I seem to also be catching colds easier than usual. Must be all those stress hormones :)
Now is the time for me and you, and others of course to take better care of ourselves. I am going to try to meditate and exercise more.
I find that when I am not occupied I think too much! I wish my chattering mind would stop. Maybe now is the time to try out something artsy? Painting? I sometimes think that we are our own worst enemies. If I am not doing anything I get into a negative thoughts rut.
I will be on here more so maybe we can chat? I am starting a new job tomorrow if I can do it. It is only 2-1/2 days per week but in my mind it might as well be 24/7!
I am going to try to do little things that may not seem like a big deal. Ask a question, make a phone call, do something I would otherwise get my husband to do.
I think maybe these small steps will help....I hope :D
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