Im currently dealing with a situatiin related with my work. I have to go to post office everiday and there is a lady there that is having toxic behaviour with me.
Last time I gone their, she said good bye to my saying "good weekend" shaking her voice at the end for a few seconds in lower voice so that her colegues dont hear she doing that, when I was leaving in a provocative way. I already saw her doing that to her coleague, everitime the other spoke she repeated the same sentences shaking her voice in a lower sound, a very childish behaviour for someone with around 60 years. Shes acting like a bully, but her behaviour is unpredictable, so it gives me a lot of anxiety so I dont know how she will behave.
This kind of event, when some radom person is not nice to me really triggers my depression. I was doing so well this summer, first time in years that I dont need take medication, Im starting the need of taking them again.
I would like to find a way to deal with that, I see this is a comun dominator all my life, that when something like that hapen, I had to give up of job, I also had to give up of a graduation of arquitecture because of a teacher being rude to me etc because this stuff really makes me sick or really depressive...I end up feeling that I have no control of my life, that those people are forcing me to take decitions I didnt wanted, like giving up of things I worked hard to achieve.
This time I had so much work to find a good place to work near that post office, and now because of that lady I think I have to go to another one at least temporary because of my health. I did the problem solving sheet, and remembered that last time I had something unpleasent repetitive with a post office worker I complaint to his superior and he stoped his bad behavour, I think I have to do that again. Other thing I was thinking to try is to confront her, letting her know that I wont tolerated this kind of behaviour animore. I would like to ask you if you think thats might be a good way to deal with this kind of situations. One day I saw a sucessfull old sir doing that to the sales man when I selled my house, being assertive in a strong voice, so I think may be thats how healthy people puts peoples in place.
I really feel weak and with my self esteem down because of these kind of people, when they are rude without a reason, since Im a very shy person that almost dont speak and there is no reason to treated me this way.
Do you have any sugestion, if was able to find a way to not get so trigered, I really think I will be healing the present and the past too. This remenber me a provocative room mate that start distroying my final important project of arquitecture in front of me, and I end up freeze without knowing how to defend my self too.