No Stella your journey didnt seem long at all as an observer of course. It feels like yesterday l came on here and you were struggling in the beginnings. It really bums me out that l didnt join you back then and it would all be behind me already. Its so true that things always look a lot easier in hindsight than when youre staring at it before you. I am getting sooo sick of being in this position but l think its weakened me rather than strengthened me. So many failed attempts makes it feel impossible. Maybe one day it will just click like it did for you. I so hope so.
You must feel so free now that no substance has a hold on you....how awesome and liberating. Addiction is such a hard battle. Youve conquered huge mountains. You should be so proud of yourself. It takes real guts and strength. You said that drugs is harder to give up than cigs but cigs is easier to relapse on. Thats exactly how l feel. I think l must be able to do this coz lve beat heavier addictions but with cigs the danger of relapse is always in my face...just a 2 minute trip up the road and some spare change. After l gave up drugs l didnt care if l smoked forever. I thought that was freedom and then it creeps up on you and you realize youre still a substance slave. I want real and pure freedom. I want to need nothing but the air l breathe. I feel just as enslaved as l did with drugs.
I know l will do this because l wont rest til l do....its just a matter of how many times l want to keep going round this mountain and geez its getting tiring.
Thanks for your encouragement Stella.....you should write a personal memoir about your addiction battles and how you conquered. So many addicts out there need to know.
Congrats on your 21 days!! Reward yourself. Im still trying to quit and finding it so hard. I guess while youre on the patch your body is still used to receiving the nicotine...which could explain your bad day when you didnt have the patch on. I get all kinds of depressed and moody when l try to quit. It sounds like the patch is a great thing for you as its helped you get this far. Just follow the directions of weaning off the patches and you should be fine. Let us know how you go.
Ps its great news that you didnt even enjoy your slip-up. No harm done.
5 months!!! Wow...l came in when you were at about 1 month and to me its felt like about 3 months not 5. Wtg girl!!! What a massive achievement to be free of every nasty addiction demon. Oh how l wish l had have done it back then and looking back on it all rather than still fighting this battle. Youre so right the time passes anyway and youre better off doing something positive with it...biting the bullet rather than dragging out the pain of quitting and busting. I dont know how you did it with yr partner smoking around you and now yoire being tested with different pressures and youre concluding that cigs wouldnt help. You truly are a reformed smoker....kudos to you Stella, what an awesome gift to give yrself. I still havent given up on the idea but lm so sick of trying and failing. I go into panic mode when l quit and cant deal with the stress. But l cant keep going round this mountain....somethings gotta give and lm afraid if its not the smokes it will be my health. Thanks for all your inspiration. I have loved reading your insights about your quitting journey. Addiction is such a ***** and you finally kicked it all. Hope youre enjoying the rainbows
Hi welcome to the forum. Youve had success in the past which means you know youre capable of doing it. Thats a big plus. I cant even get further than a short while. Its a shame yr hubby cant be more supportive but at least yr aware of it and you can just avoid talking to him about it. It sounds like youre really hating your addiction which is a great vantage point for success. And also the fact that the first days are not hard for you is a big advantage. Now all you have to do is keep going. This forum isnt very active. I see that alot of people read the posts but dont contribute prob because theyre newbies who dont stick around if their quits dont succeed. Good luck and keep us posted
I hear ya very well. Ive been on the smoking/quitting rollercoaster for about a year now. Its not fun...its worse than when l used to just smoke and accept l wad a smoker. Ive been trying to quit for a year now and all thr failed attempts has made me weaker not stronger. I end up thinking maybe lm one of those ppl whos destined to smoke for the rest of my days. Another part of me wont give up. I think l want to quit so badly how can something l want so much be so hard. I understand the sadness you feel...you just cant stop thinking about smoking. The thoughts torment you and you feel miserable. But one of these days my quit is going to stick. Im trying again today, l have about 7 left then lm trying to ditch them....again. Maybe we can do this together and support one another through this. I hope you dont give up. The tears will be worth it in the end.
I read somewhere that every hard feeling, every tear and sadness associated with quitting is the subconscious mind healing itself of the addiction. I like that. It gives some positivity to the misery.
As someone who is still trying to quit l can tell you that yes it is completely normal to feel "empty" when you quit smoking. It feels like something very vital to your day is taken away from you. I feel very empty and depressed when l quit and this is the major reason l havent been successful in quitting. Hats off to you for doing 63 days. Dont give up now...youve come so far. Youve overcome all the major hurdles....now its just a matter of time for the mind to heal of the emotional/mental dependency. As you are experiencing these cravings and resisting you are also healing on a deeper level. I hope you endure and give time for these feelings to subside. Good luck!
Im toing away for a few days then planning to quit when l come back on the 26th december. I hope my quiy sticks this time as lve had many failed attempts. Id love to exchange support here via messages. How is it going anyway? Have you quit yet? How are you feeling about it?
I know you feel guilty about your child but really you couldn't have contributed to her condition if you didnt smoke around her. Its an unfortunate coincidence. How are you travelling? Have you begun your quit?
Im still trying to quit and havent succeeded yet but the things l find helpful are reading others posts on here, going through the program here as timbo said and also writing down lists......reasons to quit, coping methods, things to do to distract/occupy time and a list of facts that support me when l read them like "physical nicotine withdrawals last 3-4 days" , "reasons to quit are stronger than reasons to smoke"....things that boost my morale when l read them. Its a quitting journal l can read over when lm craving. I hope you succeed in your quit.
Congrats on quitting smoking...its not easy so awesome thing...well done!
About your health condition....im no doctor so l dont know but a positive thing is that when you smoked you were by no means a heavy smoker and its been 6 long months since you quit so it seems unlikely you are still having withdrawals. But lm no expert....you know your body best. Hope you sort it out soon!
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