One fumble and downhill I go
Very true.
I do have a therapist, she is the one who suggested I get tested to see if I needed to be on meds. I will hopefully be seeing her 2 or more times a month? I guess it will depend.
I am trying to make other changes, such as my diet. I want to lean towards healthy and part organic. I don't think I would be able to go completely organic since I can not control the food if I was to go out and eat. Tomorrow I am involved in a walk for blood cancers (in honor of my dad) and my friend is going to go with me to Whole Foods to do some shopping.
I really want to get the energy to go to the gym, because I do miss it and I miss going to my Zumba class, because my instructor is so amazing. I was able to walk yesterday during lunch and after work for like 10 or so minutes. I was able to walk today before my lunch/department meeting. I am going to try walk 20 minutes or so when I get home. Then the walk tomorrow is only 2 miles, so I think I will be fine.
My faith is important to me and I feel over the years I have wandered away and I am trying to get back into focus. I don't think I want to find a church around me, especially if I want to move, so maybe I can find a program to watch or something on Sundays.
While I wish there a quick fix, I know from experience there is none. I have 2 close friends and one recently went and sought help for issues and was put on meds. Our other friend I think does not always understand our issues, but she is still in college and while things are stressful for her at times, she is not where we two are.
I think part of me has to accept that this is where life is and I don't know what the future holds. I can wish all my might that I would win the lottery and be golden, but that is fairy tale and it takes time and determination to get where we want to go. We are going to stumble and have issues, but we can do it.