I just started today and I feel this will be very positive since I don't want to be on medicine. This is the most interactive site that I found about this condition. It actually has steps to help you back to the normal life. I am a single mother of four kids. 7 5 3 and a 1 year old. I am always on edge. I never leave the house, and I do not drive any more. What 25 year old wants to sit in the house with a car and a motive. I use to walk my kids to the bus stop, but the other day I had an attack on the way there. My heart felt like it was gonna jump out of my chest. I dropped to the ground with my three year old standing by my side. He just stood there with his finger in his mouth. I started taking some deep breaths and did some self talk until I got on my feet again. I made it to the house and told my mom to take me to the doc. I had another attack in the docs office. After they told me I was ok and gave me my apt to the psych I went back home thinking the rest of my life is gonna be a failure if I keep going through this. I can not tell you how much I want to erase these horrible episodes. After reading the first lesson I can not wait to face these things head on.
I look out the window and I get so sad watching other people ride by laughing and enjoying themselves. I have four kids asking me to go to the park everyday. I tell them yes, knowing well I afraid to drive to my mail box. I went in Bilo the other day with my brother, and as soon as I walked in the door I was ready to go. Every step I took seemed like the symptoms got worse. I made it to get most of what I came for, but when I got to the line I thought I was gonna go crazy. A women was in front of me writing a check. I could of taken her head off! But I didn't think the police would understand. I wanted to leave my buggy and all the food and just leave. I know I am not depressed. This fear is holding me back. When I think about it I get mad. But when it happens I'm a little chick.
I do feel that support. I was happy to find this site! I feel in my heart that I will be back to my self again. I am going to take this seriously and week by week. I can't wait to put things into action. Everyday I picture my self driving all over town and walking freely around the track. This is my life and I want it back!
Should we stay away from people who from people who have negative attitudes toward this. My kids father gets angry when I am going through an episode. Sometimes he even leaves the house. He thinks I want attention. That's not even the case. I have four children. How much more do I need.
This afternoon, my mom came by to take me and the kids over to our grandmothers house. While I was getting them ready I could feel my body gearing up. The heart racing, dizziness, blurry vision. I told myself I wasn't going to hide anymore. When I went through the front door I locked it behind me. I was telling my mind that I am leaving the house and I will be back later. As I got into the truck I felt better,but the symptoms tried to flare up again. I ignored the sensations and start saying out loud every thing that I saw. ( Tree! Stop sign! Black car! Brick house!) I was focusing my mind on these things, and I made it too my grandma's house! I was so happy for my self. I am on the road to recovery!
Deb it was hard but I did it! I am back home now and I am safe. Something is telling me we are going to go through some tough times, but if we put our foot down we can do it. I do not know when I am going to start driving again. I am going to keep doing like the reading says and picture my self doing it.
Everything will be different! I will have more fun and do more with my kids. This is really affecting them and I do not want them to have a bad child hood because of it. I WILL go where I want to go. I WILL do anything my heart desires. I am just so happy thinking about it!
I will tell myself that "I am strong" "I been through this before" "It will not hurt me". I know I am up against a fight, but I want to get better. Also I want to do it without meds. It almost feel like exercising and getting back into shape. A lot of work.
Today I went to see my new counselor and to tell you the truth I do not know if he is that experience with panic disorders. I guess I will wait until my second visit in 2 weeks to fully figure him out. My anxiety was up today. No full blown attack, but I did see little white stars off and on. I had a head ache a few hours ago but it is settling down now. I need to change a lot of things about my life, starting with my diet. Looking for a better tomorrow.
I have been having some days where something feels like its trying to take over my body. Like man, I felt good just a minute ago now this. Today I was cleaning in the kitchen an I started to feel a lot of tension in my arms and back. I would of ran to my bed, but I faced it head on. It was hard at first, but I kept my mind on the cleaning. I stopped here and there to take a few sips of water which helped with that dry feeling in my throat. I learned that we don't get the dame sensations all the time. I could of sworn my heart would of been racing, but it wasn't. Not showing fear or backing down made me the winner this time. I plan to be the winner next time as well. You are not alone. I am just starting out too. We are in this together with all of our friends here.
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