New & In Need
Seven years ago I developed some medical issues that left me housebound for a few years. My medical issues are embarrassing and supposedly are controllable with medication. I am now on several medications but so far, things are not back to normal and I don't know if they ever will be.
It got to the point where I was so afraid of having my medical problems be an issue in public, that it turned to constant fear. Now, I very rarely leave my home. I have managed to go back to work but other than that, I rarely leave the house.
I have lost my independence and self-respect. I want my life back and don't know how to get it. I am hoping that this program will help me.
Last year, I started to make more progress then I expected. I was still a long way away from being normal, but I felt that I was getting there. Then, one day when I was out in public, anxiety slapped me in the face. It was unexpected and it happened somewhere that I had been going to regularly. I'm still trying to get back to where I was when I had this set-back and am afraid that I never will get back there. I am even more terrified that I will never get my life back. I have already lost so many years (and at a crucial time in my life) and so much experience that I can never get back. I'm not sure what to do anymore.
I am praying that this program will help me. I will try anything, I just need my life back.
I hope that we can all support each other and I look forward to seeing you all on the other side of this program.
Take care.
