Transitioning back to work
Hi Ashley,
Yes, talking with my co-worker about her anxiety is very helpful in the sense that it is nice to know its not just me there suffering.. This is a "secret" conversation..we both said it'd be only between us.
My honest thoughts: I feel if everyone knew they would say I was crazy, or be on the "lookout " for my mental health, and probably question my judgement (more). I have 6 people to supervise, and some of them already do not take direction well. If they knew I had anxiety I fear they would be manipulative and use it against me.
The benefits would probably be that I would feel more relaxed...maybe...
Anerol, I feel for you...you were really brave to tell your co-workers about your anxiety! how about taking Ashley's advice on a careeer counsellor?
I also saw the doctor again...wow! 3 times in 3 weeks...hadn't seen a doctor for almost 10 years before that! I was so preoccupied with worry about work that the dr.s visit took second....
It was ok. I wasn't overly anxious. Had my B/P...bit high, I am to see her in a month so we will talk more about it then.I have decided to take Davit's advice and take my B/P as much as possible. Mind you I want to cover the display so I can't see the reading.
I am still on the 10 questions/negative thoughts. I read all the end chapters...I don't quite know how to start the exposure. I guess since the fear of seeing doctors and having my B/P checked is high on my list of fears I already have achieved a goal! hmmm. There is a little pier here on the water that I have never been able to walk out to the end on. Maybe I think I'll use that as a goal for the next couple weeks.
As for going back to work ..2 shifts now.I worried about "what if" .. Thursday I was really anxious for a couple of hours then it calmed down. I used the 10 questions/breathing , and they really helped. Yesterday it was strange. The anxiety lasted longer, but it was less intense. Not so many "what ifs". And when I got really hot..(the elderly love it hot) I didn't overreact! I accepted being hot.
Thank you all so much for letting me vent.
Cleo