Feel like I´m going backwards
It's been a while sense I have posted something I'm dealing with a major setback and I need your help I'm having more and more anxiety these days it feels like I'm going backwards instead of forward I feel like everything I have done all my homework and exposure helped and it's like I forgot everything I have read because I'm in that same place of anxiety but worst. I have a boyfriend and I have been with him for 5 years now and I have never told him about my panic disorder I was able to go out with him and now I don't know why I can't anymore I get big panic attacks like if I just met him. I can only go out with someone in my family and if they come with me than I can go with him I don't know what's wrong with me he is the love of my life how can it be so scary to go out with someone that I have known for so long? It scares me to think that we can get married and I'm afraid of being with him because he might leave me somewhere to wait for him maybe in the car or while he goes to the bathroom am I going crazy? Please help me.