I spent all day today...
Fearing death... imagining what it will feel like.
My other fears...
Driving
Having a panic attack while driving alone.
Car accident.
Forgetting to breathe.
Fainting while driving.
My loved ones dying.
I may never be able to work again.
Change... going on.
Having fatal diseases.
Any physical sensations I've never had.
Eating and drinking unhealthy things.
What I would do with out my water or cellphone.
My husband stop loving me.
Being alone forever.
And many more....
Good luck, Johnny. Maybe it will not be so bad at letting your co-workers know you situation. I don't know what kind of environment you are in but remember that you are not alone and a lot of us are anxious types. There may be someone like that at work too. It is hard to make myself believe this at times, but there is nothing wrong-wrong about anxiety... we go through it for a reason. Maybe writing down some goals before you sleep and a love letter to yourself in the morning will help. It sometimes does for me.
Hello everyone! I have been seeing my therapist for about a month now and there are some things that we've realized about my worries. My worries are all automatic... it happens before I start to do anything. My therapist realized that it seems like I get some sort of relief in preparing myself for the worst. I do remember that as a child, I felt relief at expecting the worst so that the slightest better would feel best. Now I realize that worry is there for preparation... and preparation can be a good thing if I just let it stop there. "Prepare for worst. Done. And move on." Would be a controlled strategy. But if I let the worry control me... it leads to another and another and another, which ends up frightening me.
I've also read in "Tuesdays with Morrie" book that one needs to accept what we are feeling... "Ok, this is fear that I am feeling." Acknowledge it, understand it, and say STOP and let go.. to move on to the next emotion. (Easier said then done, I know... but something to think about, for sure.)
My therapist also mentioned my lack of confidence. I don't trust and believe in the positive half of predictions. I don't give myself respect that I can handle the worst. I believe there is no strength in me. But, like the "Wizard of Oz", strength, confidence, and all the qualities I fear I lack may really already be inside of me. People have told me "you are stronger than you think" and maybe they are right?
I try to remind myself of all these "things to think about" to move small steps forward. I hope they bring something, anything to the rest of you too.
Anxiety is here for a reason... maybe to help us realize a lot of things we need to learn to become who we really are. It is hard for me to believe in this most of the time, but I think there is something 'good' in this experience we are going through. It just takes A LOT of time... and patience. But we will come out 100 times stronger and wiser. (I wish I can tell this to myself when I'm having an attack!)
Hi Diva,
Thank you for the addition. It really shows the strength in you.
The worrying and warding off the bad things is exactly what I was talking about. It was like some type of hypnosis I did for myself.. but instead it went out of control in the last years to give me fear.
I also notice myself holding on to the past. When I'm struggling through this 'phase,' I'm always longing for the better me that existed in the past, comparing myself to the past me. Once in awhile, I question myself at who decided that the past me was any better, or any happier. I also want to escape and get out of this struggle quickly and that is where I am wanting the future. I often forget to live my present.
I did not like to "lie" to myself before so I never considered this, but some people can make themselves happier with "self delusions". "Fake it until, you make it." Maybe I need to pretend to be happy to become happy. Or in more reasonable terms, "Practice makes perfect."
A friend of mine said "If you have joy, spread it. If you don't, clear your mind and start from zero. For your own sake, forget everything. You can always start over."-E. C. M.
My goal is to practice and remind myself being happy. Until it becomes automatic.
Best of luck to you Diva, and thanks again for adding a lot of new views for me. "I know how to be the author of my own happy ending." I will catch up to you.
I have been a light smoker since I was 18 and quit after my first panic attack 2 years ago, which was triggered with experimenting with drugs. I believe I've always been a fearful child since I was little but the drugs was the cause of my first panic attack. I try not to regret the day it has happened but there are many days I wish I never did it.
Hey guys, lately I am not able to stop thinking about death. I think of all the worst things death can feel like and I get really depressed. In whatever I do, I get sad because one day I will disappear and that reality haunts me. I try to think happy thoughts but is brought back down with the idea that I will never get happy thoughts ever again when I die. I get sad that all the loves in my life, family, friends, my dog, will disappear into dust. I feel like everything is worthless because eventually I will die. I am afraid to post this up because I sound crazy for thinking this way but I can't make it stop.
Hey guys, thanks so much for the support. I had a good talk with my mom about it and she has made me feel better. I've decided that I will focus on my now.. I mean, I've realized that that is the important thing to do now. The thought comes back once in a while but I've made up hopes what I wish what death may be like since there is no way of really finding out. Since this is the only definite chance I'll get I decided to appreciate all of the smallest things and love the things I love. I also bought a book about how to over come the death anxiety and I will let you all know how it is. I will check out that Oprah thing too. I really do appreciate this site and DazedMommy, minnesota, Danielle, and cornish-dee thanks for your input. It makes me feel better.
I used to take Lexapro and I didn't have too much trouble sleeping but I did get sweaty during sleep. Yes, you may want to change the time you are taking it. And make sure that the dosage is the right dosage.
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