Diva's first-post

Hiya guys^^ I am not too sure what to say. I am new at this. I can tell you i have suffer from multiple anxiety disorders (GAD, Panic attacks, Agoraphobia) for many years. Some of those years were really good to me tho so i can't complain. But i have hit a rough patch lately and i am trying to arm myself as best i can to get over the hump :) I am happy to fins this web site and see that there is somewhere where i can discuss my concerns with people who will get what i am saying. My family is very nice and supportive and they do try to get it but except for those of them who have anxiety disorders also, they just can't really know what it is like. Plus i tend to have trouble discussing some things with them cause i don't want them to freak out. They so want the best for me. Anyway, seems like for somebody who doesn't know what to say i am saying alot. Anyway i just want to say hello and i am glad i have found this place :) -Diva

New-ness

Hi! I am new too. I just wanted to say hello and say i know how you feel and hang in there! Glad to meet you :)

Not sure what to call this

I just signed up for this website. I am not to sure how to procede. All i know is that atm i am coping with what i feel is a set-back. I have been dealing with anxiety disorders one of which is panic attacks for a long time (over 15 years) they started real early for me. But i had been doins really well i had successfully gone back to school and was working. Enventually tho i stopped working to concentrate on studies. Had been doing great with no meds for over 3 years! But now i find myself struggling a bit more. I am luck tho i have a great therapist and i managed to get a hold of him andhe takes good care of me. But i feel very sad ans angry about all this. I try to stay positive but i need to say it at least once i am sad and angry to have to deal with this yet again in my life! I am going back on meds and i am trying hard to remind myself that it is a good thing because if i take care of my body i can take better care of my thought, feelings and behaviors. It is just hard for me not to see all this as a personnal failure. Sometimes i am so angry and sad i could choke. But i try to stay positive and remind myself that with courage and perseverance i can relearn to be happy and calm and safe. It says it just in the first session that you can learn this panic thing which means you can unlearn it. I guess it is just hard for me to be flexible and zen-like and patient in waiting for this thing to get back under control. I think i am just not a very patient person but i am working on it. I am working hard on accepting myself as i am. Atm i am being careful to continue to get to school and not avoid things. I think i am doing well. I guess i just needed to bent and admit somewhere at least that i am sad, scared and angry. Mostly i wanted reassurance that this too shall pass and that i can be ok. I have already read session one and intend to start my homework . Thanks so much for making this website. I felt so alone. I am happy i found this place. Thank you.

Questions for anyone and everyone

I was diagnosed over 15 years ago with anxiety disorders. I was always a real nervous anxious kid tho. I think this just kinda happened progressed in my case. I mean my family is prone to nervous personnalities and i am not the only diagnosed case of anxiety in the family tree. I think that some of my life events made it worse. Fortunately some life events made it better too. I am having a rough patch lately and i know that was triggered by intense stress over a long period. But i would say all in all there wasn't a specific trigger to this except maybe the fact that it runs in the family. The only triggers i can think of are relapse triggers or escalation triggers but i think i was just kinds predisposed to this. Btw thanks for starting this thread it really was nice to see how it is for everyone else. -Diva

CBT, online?

I agree with angel to bad people dont use CBT messenger more . I am new on this site but it sounds like a great way to help each other.

CBT, online?

Oops i cliked add buddy on someone and it added them on my CBT messenger list. I didn't know what the button was lol I hope there isn't some kind of ettiquette i just broke there! Anyway, if so i am sorry! I just hope i get to see somebody onlin next time i am on! Later!

Trouble with being in shower or bath.

Hi guys, this is a new one for me. Since i had a relapse in december, i find i am having trouble getting in the shower or the bath tub to wash. I find being naked in there to be very anxious provoquing. Since i am fond of personnal hygiene this is really bothersome for me. If i am having a really bad anxious day i can't seem to make myself wash! And what if i have three really bad days in a row! I find it realy annoying. But if anticipate anxiously at the idea of going in there. It takes me forever to work up the courage to go. Then as i am naked in there i hate it. Then i get out and can't wait to be back in my clothes! Part of it is the being naked i think and part of it is feeling like i am stuck in there. I am not sure what to do. From what i understand the only thing i can do is make sure to take a shower everyday even on a bad day to make sure the shower thing becomes common place. Did i get that right? Anyway, thanks

Share!

Was just wondering how big or small theese success stories had to be for us to share them. Is i managed to open my door today something to be shared or is it more like i have been doing well for a year type of success stories in here. I think the small stuff i good to write down to. I mean if somebody managed to open their front door and look outside for the first time in a while i want to know about it and say yes! gratz! way to go! I think every little act of courage deserves being noted. Those acts of courage are what makes us get better. Anyway that is just my opinion and what do i know. Of course the big success stories are great and i wanna hear those too. I love seeing people who did it and are doing great. It gives me hope that i can have it too :) Anyway i think theese threads are a great idea^^

Need Prayer? Just ask me.

I agree we shouls all of us who pray pray for each other . We all need a bit of prayer for us. Plus i heard of this study where people who were prayed for by buddhist monks got better faster after a surgery even tho they didn't even know those monks had been instructed to pray for them. And the monk were miles away! So if it can work for post-op why not for something else? Anyway i say if anybody is willing to give me a prayer i will take it (and i don't even mind the denomination of the prayer, hey a prayer is a prayer :) ) and if anybody wants me to add them to my prayers when i do my prayers feel free to let me know^^

Mindfulness

Well i am not sure what mindfulness is exactly but it sounds a lot like what i have been reading lately. It is a very good book! I wanted to know if it is ok for me to post the name of it on here or if it breaks some kind of rule... If it is ok i will post the name of it tomorrow since it is a very good spiritual guide which have components that sound a lot like mindfulness sounds like. As for yoga.. Anyone does yoga here? And does it help? Anyway later!