Past experienced about judgement & criticism
Working now a days is very important and at the same time it is tricky; because of today's situation, but getting back to work from a traumatic experience from my previous job is what terrifies me the most. The questions are; what if I am not doing the right thing, what if I am not suited in this field anymore etc... This is some of the thoughts that I always run into.
Actually, criticism is a big word to begin with, because sometimes us without even knowing, the people who criticized or judged you is the person you share your life with. You will feel at some point that you are suffocated and you want to end it, just walk away and leave it all behind, but you can't because you have a lot of things going on, like family to support with, debts, bills and many more. And today what pushes me to be better is; I want myself to boost me, to love me, to care about me and to rejoice all the good things that may happen in this new chapter of my life.
Some may think is it a simple problem that a kindergarten can easily solve, but if you felt insecure within you, it is actually very hard to overcome because a lot of things are damaged, and you don't have the answers or solutions to fixed it.
But hopefully with my new job, I will start to love myself confidently for what I really was and be more patient in God's perfect time, because I guess we may feel down sometimes, optimistic on the other day, but it is all NATURAL because we have feelings and we are HUMANS.