Hello,
I am sitting at home wondering when my life will get better. I have been thinking I need to get more social for some time now. Covid hit and I am more isolated then ever. The problem is when I do go out into the big bad world I find myself being socially anxious. I wasn't that socially anxious before now I feel like a freak. I have been alone for so long I forget how to be social. I always feel awkward and then after I talk to someone I over analyze everything I said and did then end up feeling embarrassed about something I did. AM i alone in this?
The other day my only friend suggested we hang out with two other people. I immediately felt nervous and annoyed she even asked. I realized I was being ridiculous and agreed to spend time with everyone. The day of I tried to distract myself and stay positive. During the meeting I felt weird and on edge. I think they noticed. I didn't say much because like I said I have forgotten how to be social. So at the end of the event I just felt exhausted and kind of defeated. why is being social so hard for me now? Does anyone else feel this way. I could really use some advice from someone who knows what it's like to feel nervous about stupid things.
thanks for reading!!!!
