Introduction
Day 6 in effect. Last night was the first Sunday in at least a year where I did not have a drink. I just didn't feel the need. I am separated and every Sunday night I would drop off my daughter in a rush so I could go buy booze and drink (for those outside Canada, I am in Ontario and we can only buy hard liquor from the LCBO which closes at like 5pm on Sunday and 9 pm every day!). In the past, my ex would be like, so how is life, what's going on? I would be like fine, can I go now? Last night I was calm and collected. Didn't rush to leave. Played with my daughter for a bit (waited on purpose for the clock to hit 6pm) then smiled and said, well I guess I better get going.
I never keep booze in the house. I make it a point to always buy if I need to drink. unfortunately, this would entail me buying booze almost every bloody day, for like the past many many years. In a way, this helped me over doing it. After all, I do have to go to work every day and put on act like everything is fine.
Anyway - I am learning to cope with the boredom by reading, catching up on shows, exercising, watching videos and reading news online. I also plan to enroll in some course I was interested in and make it a point for it NOT to be online so I can get out and twice a week and meet people and do something in life.
ONE IMPORTANT THING - I find that in order for change, you must use this website and the toolbox and diary. It may seem cheesy (no offence) but unless you track your sucsess and read and encourage others and post here often, it may be difficult to succeed. How many "the new me" and "I finally quit" posts have you read and never hear back from them again? Tons.
Keep at it. You cant give up. And rewarding yourself with one drink for not drinking for one week is not worth it. There is no such thing as one drink for people like us or we would not be here. Don't do it.
