Please Help!
Hello everyone, I have been a member here for over a month now and I have been trying to battle through this quit as best I can but I honestly need some advice, I cannot keep doing this for much longer.
Ok a little history, this is my second quit in 2 years. The first quit lasted 8 months and due to the deep depression and anger problems, I took it back up. This quit, well it is day 52 and the depression is worse than the first quit. Each day is a struggle and I cannot stop thinking about taking it back up. I started smoking when I was 14, I smoked for 30 years and smoked 30 a day. I quit cold turkey both times but this time is much worse.
My children and husband no longer want to be around me, the have often told me to take it back up as the "hate" the new me. My eating is out of control as the more I crave the more I eat. I have gained 10 kilos in the past 7 weeks. I have tried relaxation, deep breathing, exercising, watching cancer videos, talking to professionals (currently in counselling) and so far nothing works. Please do not think that I am taking this quit lightly and do not "really" want to quit, this is far from the truth, what kind of a person would put themselves through this for fun? My psychological addiction is what is hurting me the most. I am and have been trying to change habits and associations, but I just get more depressed when I crave that smoke once again as that is what "I have always done". Any help or advice is really appreciated. I am feeling alone and so confused. I do not want to start up again but I am struggling here.
PS I am posting this in 2 forums, please forgive the double post, some may read it here and in the main forum. Thanks for reading.
