I turn 39 this week and starting smoking when I was 15 years old. This is my second real attempt at quiting cold turkey in 24 years. My last one was a few years ago and I went about 6 months before I fell off the wagon. After a few months I thought maybe I was a different kind of junkie and decided to go down the old "just one smoke a week road". Well I kept that up for about a week or two, then it was one every couple of days. I managed to stay a very light smoker for awhile, maybe a couple of months or so. Then one night it all came crashing down. I was out with some friends and bummed one smoke, two hours later I bought my own pack. And by the next day I was right back to my pack a day habit.
Since then I've tried the e cig, and nicotine gum but I never got passed 48 hours with either one. I don 't what happened but Sunday night I had just had enough. I went outside before bed and decided I was done with nictone and this would be my last smoke. Monday morning I got up for work and left my smokes and my lighter sitting on the kitchen counter. I made it through the day but was climbing the walls by the time I got home Monday night. I tried but the temptation proved to much for me and I had one smoke at 8PM. That was the last time I will ever smoke. I made a promise to myself Tuesday morning that I would not smoke that day. And I've made myself that promise every day since. I know it sounds cheesy but so far its working.
I'm going to make this one last. I now know that I'm a junkie and my addiction is just as real as the cocain or herion addict. The only way for me to stay clean is to never smoke another cigarette. If I take another puff, I'll be back to my old ways.
I am suruprised to say that things are going pretty smooth for me right now. I feel good and the cravings are starting to happen less often. My biggest problem is my sleep schedule is all messed up. I keep waking up in the middle of the night, where as before I slept right through to the alarm. I'm sure it has something to do in with the nicotine leaving my body. Hopefully things will get back to normal soon.
I tried E cigs a couple of years ago on a quit. My personal experience was that it didn't work for a nicotine/smoking addict at my level. All it was to me was pretending to smoke, I didn't get the same feeling on a e cig as my Marlboro. In a week I was back on the real thing and out 50 dollars.
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