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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
day 2!!

Hi!
 
I've been lurking for a while, it is time to introduce myself
 
I am an expat in the middle east, 35 years old. I've been a smoker all my adult life and for a long time I am trying to quit, oh well..
I have registered 2-3 years ago, but that quit failed after 3 weeks (and 5 kgs), and I don't even remember my user name, so this is a new start and new me!
 
It's been 30+ hours since my last cigarette, and honestly, I am finding it easier than I was expecting.
 
This time I planned carefully, registered with a dietician to keep the weight stable as much as possible 2 weeks ago, started eating right and a few days later started with champix.
I like to think of it as a new beginning, free from all addictions
 
I don't want to be too hard on myself, if I feel it is too much I will give the priority to quitting, not weight issue, but I am OK now as this dietician is making me eat more then I do normally, just not the food I am used to.
 
I am chewing gum, drinking water and herbal tea, taking deep breaths very often.
 
I don't like the side effects of the pills, I want to quit them as soon as possible without risking the quit of course.
 
I liked to be a part of this forum in the past because of all the old timers passing their wisdom on to new comers, I really need it now and need to hear from people who is going through the same right now.
And of course I need to keep my hands busy, so I will be posting a lot, excuse me if I make no sense
 
Have a nice weekend everyone!
 
 
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
day 2!!

Thanks Shevie.
I have terrible nausea in the mornings, on and off, so I am suffering at work. I read that taking the pill on full stomach helps, I tried and it is slightly better only.
I don't know if it is the pills or my mood in general but I was like drunk the first week I started with the pills, forgetting lots of stuff. I don't know if it is common, or  really a side effect but I was not normal myself. So I am being extra careful nowadays not to forget anything (at least work related)
Now that I quit, I will have withdrawal symptoms as well so it is hard to tell what is causing which.
Generally I don't like pills, so the sooner I am off the better.
Must admit they are making the quit much easier (tried going cold turkey in the past), and I am soo thankful for it
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
day 2!!

Day 3!
I never thought it would be this easy!
 
Big steps in life scare me, I am more of a 'baby step' person. The thought of 'not having another puff for the rest of my life' was not helping me at all, just making me feel desperate only.
So I just allowed myself to run out of cigarettes one day (day 12 of champix), and the next day I just tried not to smoke till noon, then till 5, until dinner, and made it through my first day, yay!
 
I am feeling very tired in the afternoons and sleeping earlier than usual in the evenings.
Have to take the dogs out for their walk when I get home (walk longer distance nowadays) so it is keeping me relatively active.
 
Samantha, thank you for your support.
I can't think of any rewards really, the feeling and the smell is enough!
I don't think I have any cravings, is that wierd?
Only, all of a sudden I want to leave my desk.. and I do when I need that, go to the kitchen to grab something or go and wash my hands. It is the need of a break I guess..
 
Aloha, I think I remember you
I saw the thread abouth weaning off, so many people shared their experience there, so very helpful thread and when time comes I will try to go with what suits me.
 
Today I am feeling better, not too much nausea, so eating in the morning really helps.
 
Yesterday a clolleague asked about the perfume I was wearing, it has been the perfume I am using for months!!
And maybe it is all in my mind but I really think my skin looks brighter 
 
So happy that I am doing this.
 
 
 
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
day 2!!

Thanks for all the support!
Day 4 was OK, just a little craving after lunch, but I was fine.
Just kept breathing, left my desk to get a cup of coffee, then went out.
 
It is morning here, day 5 started
I forgot my evening dose last night, so no 3D dreams which I was disapointed about, I am getting used to them, so much fun
I am still OK, not depressed, not stressed, very very proud of myself!
 
Yesterday I was with a colleague and he asked if it is too tempting for me if he smoked, I replied 'would be a good challenge' but now that I think about it, I didn't even notice him lighting up or even smoking.
 
Later another friend asked if I wanted one, and I smiled and said 'I don't smoke any more'
Oh, how good it felt!
 
Not too much support from friends, they are mostly smokers so I got responses like...
 
'If you are counting the days, you will fail for sure'
'Ah, you quit... for how long?'
'so and so quit smoking and failed after 2 years, it is impossible to quit'
'yeah yeah' (most disgusting response you can get I guess)
 
I am just smiling and walking away, too early to make comments but I soo want to prove them wrong.
 
J, I always knew I smelled bad and I was using cologne, perfume deodorant, hand sanitizer, you name it.
I was living with that self conscious feeling all the time which is not fun.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
day 2!!

My best strategy..
I don't really know, I am combining many things..
But mostly visualising I guess.
I picture waves.. They hit the shore and go back.. No matter how big they are, they always do..
 
I know that this is my best shot, the best time to do it. If this one fails, it will take years for me to get the courage to try again.
 
I started champix 2 months earlier and when the quit date was close I started to panic and gave up the pills.
That's why this time I kind of went with the flow.
 
And still, I am not saying 'I will never smoke again' which might be a mistake for some, but for me it is better than pressure and getting scared. I am literally going day by day:)
Does it make sense?
 
 
 
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
Failed! Starting over..

I am sorry to say I failed.
 
I wrote a long post but it disappeared, so here is the short version..
 
I was in my comfort zone, very relaxed, at home in my garden and a neighbor approached and we started talking, he offered a cig, and you know the rest..
I was doing so good and so proud of myself, I can't believe I messed up!
 
I reset my meter, it has been 28 hours since the last one..
 
I can't afford messing this up too, this has to be it, my last quit!
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
Failed! Starting over..

One more thing..
 
I am not picturing waves any more.
 
I am picturing my quit.. as a puppy.. a very cute baby.. but premature and very fragile.. trying to survive against all odds..
 
Let's see if it will work.
 
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
Failed! Starting over..

Eya, 40 days free looks good on you, congrats!
Can't wait to be there myself.
 
Aloha, like Eya I lost the quit on day 5, and smoked 4 sticks in total until I quit again.
 
Tiana,  I guess I wasn't as determined as I thought.
 
The good thing is, I lost 3 pounds (in 2 weeks) while I was struggling to get through the hell week. I failed on the quit part but at least did not put on weight and failed which could have happened easily!
 
But last week was not a total loss, it makes this week much easier. I am reading a lot of the old posts to keep focus. By the way, why can't you make a search for the posts older than 2 years? I am sure lots of information is hidden there:(
 
Dawn, I had to look again to understand your smoke free days, 651 ?? Amazing! And from where I stand today, it looks sooo difficult to reach.
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
My first glass of wine since I quit

Had my first glass of wine last night.
And I left that table with no cravings
I was trying to avoid alcohol, but thought I will be fine last night and I was!
There was noone smoking around, so it helped of course.
When I reached home a huge craving hit though, biggest one I had so far, so I will try to stay away from alcohol as much as I can, at least the first few months. No need to push it, right?
 
I didn't have the evening dose of the pills for 3 nights (only because I forgot to take it 2 nights in a row), so maybe it has something to do with the craving.
 
Is it too early to reduce the dose?
 
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9 years ago 0 marbles 31 logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo logo
My first glass of wine since I quit

Hi Aloha,
 
I have no intention to quit the pills earlier than 12 weeks, and I might continue upto 6 months if it will help my quit get stronger.
But the last couple of days there was no nausea, and I thought maybe it is better to take a single pill.
Of course I don't want to do anything risking the quit, it is my main priority now.
Thanks for your nice words! I never thought of myself quit for 6 months until I read your post
It sounds scary when you think about it all of a sudden, but now that I think about it, I just have to do what I've been doing
 
Friday I will be 1 week smoke free and I will buy myself a treadmill. (maybe I should call it a punishment, )
And if I can continue the first month smoke free with no weight gain, I have to decide on a huge reward!
 
Off to dream now!