Well today is the first day. I have been a smoker for almost 15 years. I have been up to a pack a day for about 5. I have tried to quit several times in the past. I've read everything on the net, read every book I could find, and tried almost every quit smoking aid. I have never been able to make it stick. My longest quit was for 3 months on Chantix.
I have two girls 9 and 6. I never was able to quit during those pregnancy, but was down to 3 a day or less. They are both healthy and happy little girls. Although I'm sure they wished their mommy didn't smoke. I don't smoke in my house, never have because my husband is a non-smoker (both his parents were chain smokers who have recently quit because of a health scare)
Most of my friends are non-smokers and I have only one sister that smokes. I grew up around smoking though because many of my older relatives smoked and my grandfather smoked a pipe into his 50s. My parents do not.
So why do I? I thought I'd try it when I was 18 and could buy my own. Made me sick and throw up! Never touched it again till I went to school the next fall. I had major anxiety living in the city (I was a country girl with a sheltered life) and I found that just one helped me relax enough to go to sleep at night. Then there was the one to wake up and then so on. Was only about 5 a day until I tried to quit 6 years ago for the first time.
Every time I've tried to quit I've started smoking even more when that quit failed. Now I'm up to a pack a day.
I could quit easy if I could spend the whole day in bed. Or spend the whole day on a bus or somewhere where smoking is not allowed. Although I do have to go outside sometime and that is where it hits me full force. It's freezing out (8below this morning with wind), but that fresh air makes me want a smoke BAD! I love the outdoors in the summer and it's going to be hell not smoking when I'm out there gardening, fishing, camping, or hiking. For now I can hide in my house mostly.
So here goes.....this time I'm not going back.
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