everyday I try to “wean” myself off booze. It doesn’t work. I’m terrified of withdrawal and what I’d do with my life if I was sober. My life has fallen apart after my partner decided to leave me and I often think to myself “who cares?” And then take another drink. I don’t drink in public, even though I’m pretty reserved when I do drink. I have family events coming up and while I’m usually sober for them I just go home afterwards and drink like a fish. I need help but my family is counter productive since it just creates a stigma around me. My depression and anxiety rule my life, and I can only “cure” it with a large quantity of booze. I do not have any money or insurance for rehab.