[color=Blue]I wrote this e-mail to friend back in November, when they asked how I was able to come back from a relapse. I don't think they'll mind me posting it here to hopefully help another friend....or two. :) I did try to delete out anything personal.[/color]
I'm happy to share if it'll help you. I slipped at first at about three weeks quit. I tried to come back right away and just kept on slipping. After a week or two of stumbles, I came to realize I just wan't prepared. Plus as odd as it sounds...(I know, I know...junkie thinking ) the meter thing got to me. I felt guilty keeping my meter, but didn't think it was fair to lose three hard won weeks. If I went back to smoking then I broke that stalemate. *shrug* makes no sense...but that was part of my thought process. I felt like I was in limbo land. Anyway, After I lost my quit altogether (early February), I went to the doc, got on wellbutrin. spent a bunch of time on a smoking cessation site, smoked every cigarette thinking about how it was slow suicide, set another quit date, and the rest is history (and about 40lbs! *ack*). This is one of the hardest things I've ever done, Pam. In December of last year I was a 3 pack a day smoker. I would try to cut back and end up smoking more. I would try to quit and end up smoking more. I had been in the hospital twice in two years with pneumo-thorax (hole in your lung), I lost my mom and dad and my grandma in the last 10 years to lung cancer. I am 42 and have no living parents or grandparents. I spent every cigarette thinking about how I did not want to die young...especially not out of my own stupidity! So, I guess to answer your question, I did continue to stumble too. Then I gave up long enough to get my act together. I kept thinking of how many 'special days' I let pass me up...my 35th bday, 40th bday, Christmases. It is hard to get your momentum back...really hard. When I quit the second time, I had none of the adrenaline/excitement like the first quit. I did it by sheer determination, 'grit-your-teeth-and-bear-it' determination. I haven't told many people about this and I don't know your religious background... The first time I prayed, really prayed to God to help me quit...a week later I had a hole in my lung. I was scared t
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